Losing Game

I can never compete with tomorrow
I always lose
No matter how much I love you today
No matter how much my heart
overflows with love now
and how it expands with every beat,
just because you are inside,
it will always be less than tomorrow
for each day I love you more

©RoseGirl2019

Mosaic

It’s so easy to lose ourselves
in the little pieces of you and me
in a piece of sadness, a piece of fear

But as we put all those pieces together
Light pieces, dark pieces
Pieces of you and me in all
the colours of the rainbow,
We see the bigger picture
We see a beautiful mosaic

©RoseGirl2019

I Hear You

I listen to your silence
and I hear the unsaid
I hear all your
unspoken words
and I Iisten even deeper
I hear your soul song sing
and how it harmonizes
with mine

I listen to your silence
and let it speak, let it
sing to me
And I hear the orchestra
of your heart,
your uncensored voice
of wisdom

So don’t be afraid, my love
if your throat cannot voice
For even a silence
cannot silence you
You’ll always
still be heard by me

©RoseGirl2019

Meaningful

The poetess holds her head
in her hands and sighs
The angel of inspiration
looks at her and asks:
What’s the matter, my dear?

The poetess answers:
What if I am not important
What if my words are not important?

The angel smiles:
You are just you
Words are just words
It’s the ego
that tends to value
and to categorize

Words are everything
and they are nothing
at the same time
They are all as well
important as unimportant
For it is the hand
of the writer
that makes the poem
meaningful

Only you can give
meaning to yourself

©RoseGirl2019

Let Love In

And sometimes it’s good
to put down the pen
to take a pause
and be like the white
of the paper
and hold space
to receive the words

And instead of only
sending love out,
letting love in,
letting you in

To open the blinds
before my heart
and let the rays of your sun
shine its love letters
on my inside

©RoseGirl2019

Closer Than We Think

Do you long for home
like me
For our bodies to connect
Our arms to entwine
Our eyes to lock

Sometimes it feels so close
that you can already taste it,
smell it, sense it
As if you only need to reach out
your hand to open the door

And at times the mind may
fool the physical eyes
and it may look like home is
miles away, a world apart
And the journey seems so long
and exhausting
You seem lost and you wonder
how long it yet will take

And sometimes, it feels like
you have arrived
and you are home
You feel me, I feel you
As if we’re already there
And you taste me, I taste you
You smell me, I smell you
In the arms of the heart
we have enclosed each other

Home is here, my love
It is waiting for us
Do not let your mind,
your eyes fool you
But feel it, taste it, smell it
and our feet, our hands,
our arms, our eyes will follow

©RoseGirl2019

Free Birds

Our love is like a free bird
that flies high and gracefully
in the sky
We couldn’t catch it
We couldn’t cage it in our hearts

But instead, we had to break
free from the chains,
from what held us down
We had to grow our own wings,
rise above ourselves and
surrender to the wind

Just like our love,
we had to become
free birds as well

©RoseGirl2019

Choose Yourself First

I chose many things
many people and situations

When I was a small kid
I chose to be a good girl
I chose to be loyal to my father
even when he physically
and emotionally abused me

I chose to be loyal to my mother
even when she didn’t choose me
I chose to take care of her
even when that meant
that I couldn’t be a child myself

I chose to be loyal to my teachers
and to be the best student
so I wouldn’t disappoint

I chose to be loyal to my husband
even when I didn’t truly love him
and he beat the hell out of me

I chose to be a good friend
to always reach out an helping hand
even when I had nothing left to offer

I chose many things,
many people and situations
But somehow in the process
I forgot to choose myself
so I couldn’t be chosen by others

©RoseGirl2019

Attraction

The full moon,
I don’t look for her outside
But I find her within me
as a glowing ball
inside my heart
that is lit up
by your internal sun
And I feel the tension
between those two
the attraction, the pull
deep love
Your sun, my moon
perfectly aligned

Together we can light
the whole world

©RoseGirl2019

I’m Eating Your Chocolate

I’m eating your chocolate now
The chocolate that I had bought
especially for you
I’m so sorry, but it wanted to be eaten
and could not wait for you any longer
I really had to help the chocolate out

But just close your eyes and imagine
How you taste it through my senses
The hazelnut chocolate that is hard at first
Then melts so sweetly in the mouth

Just sense this heavenly burst
of taste, touch and smell
How it glides over the tongue
How it dances up and down
and back and forth

But hey, my darling,
don’t be so greedy
Is this still me and the chocolate
Or are we actually French kissing?!

©RoseGirl2019

P.S. I will buy new chocolate
for you, I promise
And if necessary (probably it is)
I will buy it again and again,
no problem

On Staying Strong

Staying strong is not
like being a tough rock
or an armoured knight

But it’s like a tree
that bends with its branches
in the wind
A ship that moves
with the tides

It’s being in the midst of a storm
But having your eyes focused
on the bright horizon
in the distance

It’s feeling all the emotions
with a soft and open heart
Being the space for the waves
to rise and fall
And yet keeping both feet firmly
on the ground

©RoseGirl2019

I Like Myself

I am my own fan
and have joined
my own exclusive fan club
I’m curious to know
everything about myself
I follow my own butt
everywhere I go
Whenever I’m down,
I cheer myself up
I read all my poetry
and never skip
a single word
And like a real fan,
even on off-days,
I tell myself
how amazing I am
(which can sometimes
be pretty annoying)

©RoseGirl2019

To Love Fully

You handed me a gift
It was wrapped in several
layers of paper
It took me many years
to unpack it

At times, when I took off a layer
and I got a glimpse of
what could be inside,
I got scared
and again, quickly covered it

At times, I even put it aside
stored it on a hidden shelf
But it always seemed to
catch my attention
and to demand my
devotion and courage

The more layers I removed,
the softer it felt
and the more love glowed
from inside

Until I was brave enough
to fully face it,
to not run away from it no more
Until my eyes were strong enough
to handle its brightness
Until my mind had become
humble enough to serve
Then I took off the last layer

I saw that you had gifted me
my own heart in all its beauty
and purity
You had made me unpack
its ability to love wholly and fully
And there, I found you inside

©RoseGirl2019

Soul Deep

I am your silky soft paper
Write your words on me
Kiss them one by one
slowly onto my lips
Breathe them into my heart
Draw ornate letters
with your tongue
Let the ink flow abundantly
on my body
And make me quiver with
touching poetry
from head to toe
and soul deep

©RoseGirl2019

It’s The Heart That Makes A Queen

She looked at her beloved, her king
Then looked at herself and said:

You seem to have so much
and I seem to have so little
The words with which I build
my poems are not perfect
My house of poetry
doesn’t look perfect either
Does that make you
a big tall tree
on your high throne
for everyone to see
and to be admired
and me just a small wild rose
hidden in the grass

The king kneeled
down before her,
took her hands and smiled:

You don’t have little
You have the whole world
inside of you
We both are two tall trees
that reach for the sky
and dance gracefully in the wind
And we are two wild roses
that colour the fields
with their love
It is not about the perfect words,
the perfect clothes
with which you dress
yourself up
But it’s about the light
that shines through,
it’s the heart
that makes a queen,
it’s the heart
that makes a perfect poem

©RoseGirl2019

My Cosmic Family

When I was a child
I was the strange bird
in the nest
I didn’t fit in, I didn’t belong

I always imagined and hoped
that my family wasn’t
my real family
And one day my real parents
would come for me
to save me from the nightmare
in which I grew up

But no one came,
the nightmare continued
Was I then completely alone
in this world,
I wondered for a long time
Until I met you
and you woke me up

And I saw that mother earth
had always carried me
Father heaven had protected me
The angels had my back
as my family
And I had and have you
always by my side

©RoseGirl2019

Remember My Gaze

And she said:

Who am I
Am I a poetess
Is it useful to write
Do my words contribute
anything
to anyone,
to a better world
Is it enough
Am I enough
Who am I

And he said:

Your words are
a pure expression
of your soul
A gift from the heavens
Cherish it
Express yourself
as much as you can
To remind others of
their true essence
Your words are the stars
in the sky
If you don’t know
who you are,
Remember, how I looked
you into your eyes
How I mirrored you
your purest self
Remember my gaze
and know
that you are love
and that is your purpose

©RoseGirl2019

Our Dreamland

Late at night
do you hear me tell you
all my stories
the ones that are only
meant for you

The princess
that finds her prince
The knight
that finds his lady

Sweet good night tales
that lullaby you
magically to sleep
Only to wake you up
to our dreamland

©RoseGirl2019

When I Am

Maybe, I don’t need to go anywhere
I don’t need to travel to other places
I don’t need to do anything
I don’t need to fix or solve,
earn or achieve

I don’t even need to make
or write poetry
But I can just be
I can just feel
I can just breathe
and exist

And I will still be okay
I will still be valuable
I will still be loved by you

©RoseGirl2019

Through The Heart

Your fingers glide over the guitar
I close my eyes
And hear you play
the most beautiful sunrise
over a land far away
And I see the golden light
delicately streamed
by your fingers
as you play on the strings
of your heart
and let its rays caress me

And I feel you
How I feel you
Could we be more intimate,
more vulnerable like this
Your naked tune
that finds its way into me
And you go deeper and deeper
When the soul makes love
through the heart
time and space,
even the boundaries of a body
fall away

©RoseGirl2019

Don’t Cry For Me, Lisboa

Don’t cry for me, Lisboa
Although I didn’t visit you for a while
Bright city at the river Tagus
You remind me too much of my beloved
and all that is missing
Memories are captured in every tile

Tales have nowhere to go
I have been lost in your streets
and I was nowhere to find
I don’t want to make the Tagus
overflow with my tears
Or fixate the horizon
with my yearning gaze

But don’t cry for me, Lisboa
Wait for me instead
Keep me and my beloved alive
Honour us in your brightness,
in your poetry, in your fado songs
Pray for us in your churches
Cheer on us in the castle
Shine your light on in our hearts

Each night in my dreams
I dance with my beloved in your alleys
We make love under your stars
And one day, when fate aligns
I will return, I promise
to once again pick me and my beloved up

©RoseGirl2019

Where The Magic Is

While reading your journal
you wrote me right into your heart
Where I walked together with you
on your journey
Every step I was by your side
Holding your hand
Crying your tears
Watching the sunrise
Hearing the heavenly music
of the sacred land
Seeing beyond and into other worlds
where spirits guide us
Feeling your roots growing into the earth
and receiving the blessing
Reaching a place of emotions
where words cannot come
Welcome home, my love
to the magic
of your own pure heart

©RoseGirl2019