I chose many things
many people and situations

When I was a small kid
I chose to be a good girl
I chose to be loyal to my father
even when he physically
and emotionally abused me

I chose to be loyal to my mother
even when she didn’t choose me
I chose to take care of her
even when that meant
that I couldn’t be a child myself

I chose to be loyal to my teachers
and to be the best student
so I wouldn’t disappoint

I chose to be loyal to my husband
even when I didn’t truly love him
and he beat the hell out of me

I chose to be a good friend
to always reach out an helping hand
even when I had nothing left to offer

I chose many things,
many people and situations
But somehow in the process
I forgot to choose myself
so I couldn’t be chosen by others

©RoseGirl2019