Stay Inside

Don’t go outside
farther than the border
of your skin
where you’ll find
a gap, an abyss
where eyes miss to see,
to be seen and to drown
where arms miss to hold
and be held
where fingers miss to touch
and be touched

But stay inside
where the heart
is full of him


Rising Sun

Feet in the mud
of the polder
as the cold and the rain
caress my face
The winter wind plays
joyfully with my hair
The grey sky kisses me
the river smiles
as if it is the first time
as if there’s only now

Falcons fly above my head
and promise victory
Birds of the Rising Sun
Ancient Egypt deities
greet me
and I greet you from far
in gold rimmed thoughts
And I know I will,
we will rise


Tree And Bird

My body
was in the hospital bed
but I didn’t know
where I was

Words were too much
Legs couldn’t carry me
I didn’t remember

Eyes were closed
most of the time
but when I opened
I looked through the window
and saw a tree
with a bird in there

Leaves moved
the bird moved
I didn’t move
Still, like dead

Days passed
I didn’t know
I floated away
out of time
but always back
to the tree
to see the bird

Was it you, my love
that had flown
across the ocean
to keep me alive


A Racing Heart

A heart that is beating too fast
that is racing and aching
gasping for breath
is just missing and longing
and running
with all that it’s got
towards you


*I’m dealing with some heart problems (low blood pressure, high heart rate, pain on the chest, dizziness, fainting) in my recovery process after my stay in the ICU/ hospital:

The Unfinished Story

I’ve been absent for quite a while on my blog because I was very ill and was in the ICU. However, I don’t know anything about it as I was unconscious. At first, when I came back, I didn’t know who I was anymore and lost my memories. Luckily, those are coming back.
It’s still a rollercoaster and I need a lot of rest and care but at least and Thank God! I’m able to write again.

The Unfinished Story

Life was eclipsed
darkness covered the eyes
-I can’t even see
myself no more,
memories buried
mind, body gone
into nowhere land,
But then destiny,
the unfinished story
of you and me
sends me its sun


I’ll Be There

I will be there, my love
at our fated meeting
I hear the calling
and respond
even if I have to walk
through dark nights
even if the road is long
and I have to climb mountains
even if I’m scared, exhausted
and disheartened
I will go on
and be there
when the church bells ring
when the day has come
that the stars align
on a date written in our hearts
when we have our appointment
I will show up
for myself, for you
for us