Who is there
when there’s no one there no more
when the music has been turned off,
the dance stopped
when the day has sunk away
and the night envelopes me
when I’m alone with my thoughts,
alone with headaches
who is there
who is always
and everywhere
where love is

It’s you

©RoseGirl2021

When the head
is dark with pain,
I think
many thoughts of you
that are like candles
that spread
their healing light

©RoseGirl2021

When headaches attack
so badly,
I seek cover with you
behind a shield of love
in the heart

©RoseGirl2021

When the night consists of pain
migraines that cut like knives
in the head
and make it hard to breathe
as the whole body contracts
Alone on a violent sea
The shore of the morning
yet far away
then you’re that star in the firmament
that my heart stays focused on

©RoseGirl2021

Sometimes missing you
is so deadly
that my words drown in it
and leave the page empty

©RoseGirl2021

When it snows and storms
in April
and I battle with the wind
battle with myself
and I cannot even get words out
will you hold me tightly
as I cry and scream my pain
in hurricanes and waterfalls
and will you remind me
with your strong arms,
your soft voice
of the inevitability of Spring

©RoseGirl2021

Even though her heart hurts,
she keeps it uncovered
and open
so the light,
so love can come in
for that’s the only thing
that can heal
an open wound

©RoseGirl2021

The head burns
fiercely with ache
though the heart burns
even stronger
with love

©RoseGirl2021

Even my dreams at night
don’t seem to entertain me no more
they cannot soothe or fool
for I walk around lucidly in my dream
and only wonder, where are you

Dreams are just not real
when you’re not in them

©RoseGirl2021

If I just keep my eyes closed,
I won’t see the raindrops
that slide down the window
through which I look
at the world,
I won’t see all the colours
that are missing,
the yawning gaps
between words

But if I just keep
my eyes closed
I see you

©RoseGirl2021

I wish you were here now
so I could tell you directly
how much I miss you
and you could comfort me

©RoseGirl2021

Locked up
inside myself
within skin and bones
Unable to move
Words all stay inside
Headache knocks
on inner walls
Though through the heart
I find a way out
as I feel my way to you

©RoseGirl2021

I wake up by the sound of rain
is it the pain of a lonely day
of not being seen or heard
is it the pain of missing the sun
missing the touch of you
but does it matter
why clouds gather
and raindrops fall
’cause when it rains,
it just rains

©RoseGirl2021

An army of pain
came to attack
and leaves head
and body bruised
and impaired

yet I can still think of you
yet love rises from the ashes
and when arms are too weak
to reach out to it
it reaches out to me

©RoseGirl2021

So much pain
in the head
The mind seeks
an escape
and thinks of
kissing you

©RoseGirl2021

As I lie on my bed
in the dark
and I hear the wolves
of pain howl within,
the full moon shines
through the window
upon me
and makes tears
and skin shimmer
Naked I bathe in her light
and let it absorb and heal me
let it touch, caress me
as if it is your embrace

©RoseGirl2021

Lying still
buried
underneath
a heap of pain
Within I dig up
the treasure
of love

©RoseGirl2021

Even if nights are dark
and lonely
and headaches and heartaches
rage brutally
There’s always a bird
that sings at dawn
of our love

©RoseGirl2021

Sometimes the silence between us
screams so loudly
that it is deafening
and heart hurting, heart breaking

until I quiet my mind down
and hear you, hear love
again that sings softly within
and breaks not the heart
but breaks any silence

©RoseGirl2021

The real nightmare is not
the terrifying dream I have
in which the skeletons of my
childhood come back to life
but it is when I wake up from that
in the middle of the night
bathing in horrors
and you are not there

©RoseGirl2021

And there it is again
the same old pain
that explodes harshly
and mercilessly in my head
almost impossible to bear
and as I lie in my bed
surrounded by darkness
unable to move
I surrender, I breathe, I pray
and feel the same old love
while I think of you

©RoseGirl2021

I have too many sad songs
within me
that are played
especially in lonely nights,
in lost mornings
or at unexpected times
during the day
Tearful tunes
that only I can hear
Or my love, do you hear
them too?

©RoseGirl2021

In the silent cold winter night
pain thunders in the head
and wakes up too many thoughts
The body lies still
and the heart sings a soft lullaby
that all is safe and well
that there is love, there is us
to put pain and thoughts to sleep

©RoseGirl2021

Nightmares come at night
like hyenas from all corners
to catch their prey
and bring the ghosts of the past
back to life
even when I open my eyes
I can still see them
And while I listen to a freezing cold
snow storm that rages
around the house
I crawl deep under the covers,
under the warmth of our love
to find back my dreams of the future

©RoseGirl2021

Hurt can be like a hurricane
blind rage that tears
everything down
my heart, my words helpless
unappreciated,
unrecognized
scattered
in a thousand pieces
all around me
but when I look at them
one by one
I still read their love poem
for you

©RoseGirl2021

I’m caged
inside my head
held hostage
by dark thoughts
and the only way
to break free
is to escape with you
through the heart

©RoseGirl2021

And as she lies
on her bed
enduring aches,
straight through
the thunder
she hears his
soft call,
his hopeful song
and then
with tender touch
their love puts a hand
on her forehead
and heart
to soothe her
till the storm passes

©RoseGirl2021

Waves of pain
corner me
and smash hard
and merciless
on my land
but within
the raging sea
I have
a love island
where I seek
higher ground
with you

©RoseGirl2021

While heavy pain
in the head
makes muscles
and thoughts
contract
love softens
and makes the heart
expand

©RoseGirl2021

The harder I try
not to miss you
and to keep it
out of my words
the harder it sneaks in
through the backdoor
to occupy this poem

©RoseGirl2021

And I find my breath
through aches and tears
find myself
and thus find you
To know that every time
the breath falls
it will rise again
and there’s always
a next, new breath,
there’s love
to pick me up

©RoseGirl2021

When the soldiers
of pain
occupy my head
I don’t fight
but retreat
to stay safe
with you
inside my heart

©RoseGirl2021

As severe aches turn her night
into a harsh battlefield
witnessed only by the full moon
She whispers, she smiles
‘I love you’s’ to him
through her tears
for love is still invincible

©RoseGirl2020

Migraines numb
the mind and body
but they never numb
the heart

©RoseGirl2020

Lying in my bed I listen to
the storm that howls
and rages around the house
and inside my head
in the form of migraines
and disturbing thoughts
while I find the eye of it
in my heart where love
peacefully resides
in harmony with you

©RoseGirl2020

When I go to sleep
all that awaits me
to keep me company
is an I miss you

©RoseGirl2020

When I stand on the edge
of the abyss
and I begin to fall deep
as I spiral down
into self-doubts and fears
I turn my face up to look
at stars and moon instead
to find my wings
and fly there with you

©RoseGirl2020

Nightmares create a hell at night
but within them
surrounded by their stormy waters
I’m on an island
where I create my heaven with you

©RoseGirl2020

After a night of little sleep
the dawn comes with
aches and rain
and doesn’t beat the dark
but in the end love will
make the sun return

©RoseGirl2020

When the darkness outside
is suffocating
and I don’t even know
if the wetness I sense
on my cheeks is
my tears or
it is the rain
and I seek a light
on the near horizon
but all I see are stars
light years away
their light in fact,
long gone
Then I feel you,
feel our hearts connect
and light up
and then
I can
breathe again

©RoseGirl2020

I think of you and pull
a sweet dream of love
over my head
like a blanket
so I don’t need to face
my harsh nightmares

©RoseGirl2020

There’s much more
than the pain
I am feeling
Beyond the migraine
pounding in my head
there’s you, there’s me
there’s love

©RoseGirl2020

It’s when I want to write you
but I cannot write you
that I miss you the most
It’s when the distance,
the gap between us
can’t be bridged by words

©RoseGirl2020

A merciless migraine
pierces my forehead
And ‘I miss you’s’
pierce my heart
Yet from my wounds
I bleed love

©RoseGirl2020