My love, can I write you
when my night falls apart
when darkness hurts the eyes
rain keeps falling
and clouds cover the stars

Can I write you
my wordless loneliness and fears
with the pen of my thoughts
and will you write back to me
your love?

©RoseGirl2021

One day within the hurt
she lost all her words
The wind from overseas
found them for her
and kept blowing,
kept whispering
in her ear
not to give up
on what was written
in her heart

©RoseGirl2021

The heart can set
in aches, fears
and darkness
but it always rises
in love again

©RoseGirl2021

When the head is full of ache
it is difficult to think clearly
Luckily, the heart doesn’t need
any thoughts to love you

©RoseGirl2021

If it feels like love can be taken
from her anytime,
she can lose it,
she has to earn it
and therefore she needs to run
before more hurt will come,
she doesn’t see
that love is the source
deep within her soul
what she breathes
what her heart beats
what she is
And the only thing
that deprives her of it
are her fears and thoughts

©RoseGirl2021

If a heart is scared
it closes its doors
and weeps and screams
behind its own walls
where no one can see
or hear it

Until it finds courage
again and again
in the ocean of love
in its depths
to open up

©RoseGirl2021

I look at the stars
and tell them
how much I miss you
how far away you seem
how lonely the night
and they reply to me
as they continue to shimmer
stories written in the heavens
can have many pages,
many twists
but eventually,
true love never dies

©RoseGirl2021

If the day feels
like a big gap
I can easily fall into
as it has all those
empty minutes
without you here
I just fill it
with loving you

©RoseGirl2021

Lonely words fly around me
Perhaps, if I write
them together,
hand in hand in lines
and unite them
in a love poem,
they will feel less sad

©RoseGirl2021

When I don’t want to write
all those sad poems
that rain from the heavens
and flow from my eyes
I write wordless love instead

©RoseGirl2021

Hurt violently breaks
body and heart
and pierces the soul
but leaves the love
there intact

©RoseGirl2021

It’s in those nights
that I lie still like dead
and cannot move the body
to endure the pain
inside the head
It’s in those nights
that I shelter in darkness
as even moonlight hurts the eyes,
that my heart still moves
to find the light of you

©RoseGirl2021

Pain and fears
can scream like crazy
though, even miles apart
they can never
silence the song
sung between two hearts

©RoseGirl2021

Within pain
she’s never
without
love

©RoseGirl2021

If I’m a wounded bird
almost unable to stand
on its feet
will you still see me
as your queen of the sky
will you wrap your wings
around me
and pick me up
until I can again fly myself

©RoseGirl2021

And you have to get up today
and straighten your back
to stand up once more
even if you’re shaky and afraid
of what needs to be done
and the task seems difficult
Just breathe
feel that anchor, that bond
with him, your precious beloved
and be armored with
the power of love

©RoseGirl2021

I try to seek words
within the pain
to voice its pounding
and screaming
inside my head
but all I find
are the words
and voice of love

©RoseGirl2021

A head with harsh ache
lays itself to rest
and finds solace in
soft thoughts of you

©RoseGirl2021

May I lie in your arms
and cry my rivers there
you, my riverbed
in which I can
safely flow

©RoseGirl2021

When ‘what if’s’,
memories
and ‘I miss you’s’
creep in
the skin becomes so sensitive
that even the rain
that taps on the window
hurts

©RoseGirl2021

Heavy
is the pain in the chest,
the memories,
the thoughts in the head
Light
is the love in the heart
Burning
is your presence there
A flame
that dissolves the dark

©RoseGirl2021

When the body
is squeezed
with so much pain
the head explodes
with cruel ache
The lonely night
suffocates
and I sink away
under water,
I pray, I gasp for breath
and throw my lines
as I hold on to
loving thoughts of you

The survival
of the fittest
are those who love
the most

©RoseGirl2021

Who is there
when there’s no one there no more
when the music has been turned off,
the dance stopped
when the day has sunk away
and the night envelopes me
when I’m alone with my thoughts,
alone with headaches
who is there
who is always
and everywhere
where love is

It’s you

©RoseGirl2021

When the head
is dark with pain,
I think
many thoughts of you
that are like candles
that spread
their healing light

©RoseGirl2021

When headaches attack
so badly,
I seek cover with you
behind a shield of love
in the heart

©RoseGirl2021

When the night consists of pain
migraines that cut like knives
in the head
and make it hard to breathe
as the whole body contracts
Alone on a violent sea
The shore of the morning
yet far away
then you’re that star in the firmament
that my heart stays focused on

©RoseGirl2021

Sometimes missing you
is so deadly
that my words drown in it
and leave the page empty

©RoseGirl2021

When it snows and storms
in April
and I battle with the wind
battle with myself
and I cannot even get words out
will you hold me tightly
as I cry and scream my pain
in hurricanes and waterfalls
and will you remind me
with your strong arms,
your soft voice
of the inevitability of Spring

©RoseGirl2021

Even though her heart hurts,
she keeps it uncovered
and open
so the light,
so love can come in
for that’s the only thing
that can heal
an open wound

©RoseGirl2021

The head burns
fiercely with ache
though the heart burns
even stronger
with love

©RoseGirl2021

Even my dreams at night
don’t seem to entertain me no more
they cannot soothe or fool
for I walk around lucidly in my dream
and only wonder, where are you

Dreams are just not real
when you’re not in them

©RoseGirl2021

If I just keep my eyes closed,
I won’t see the raindrops
that slide down the window
through which I look
at the world,
I won’t see all the colours
that are missing,
the yawning gaps
between words

But if I just keep
my eyes closed
I see you

©RoseGirl2021

I wish you were here now
so I could tell you directly
how much I miss you
and you could comfort me

©RoseGirl2021

Locked up
inside myself
within skin and bones
Unable to move
Words all stay inside
Headache knocks
on inner walls
Though through the heart
I find a way out
as I feel my way to you

©RoseGirl2021

I wake up by the sound of rain
is it the pain of a lonely day
of not being seen or heard
is it the pain of missing the sun
missing the touch of you
but does it matter
why clouds gather
and raindrops fall
’cause when it rains,
it just rains

©RoseGirl2021

An army of pain
came to attack
and leaves head
and body bruised
and impaired

yet I can still think of you
yet love rises from the ashes
and when arms are too weak
to reach out to it
it reaches out to me

©RoseGirl2021

So much pain
in the head
The mind seeks
an escape
and thinks of
kissing you

©RoseGirl2021

As I lie on my bed
in the dark
and I hear the wolves
of pain howl within,
the full moon shines
through the window
upon me
and makes tears
and skin shimmer
Naked I bathe in her light
and let it absorb and heal me
let it touch, caress me
as if it is your embrace

©RoseGirl2021

Lying still
buried
underneath
a heap of pain
Within I dig up
the treasure
of love

©RoseGirl2021

Even if nights are dark
and lonely
and headaches and heartaches
rage brutally
There’s always a bird
that sings at dawn
of our love

©RoseGirl2021

Sometimes the silence between us
screams so loudly
that it is deafening
and heart hurting, heart breaking

until I quiet my mind down
and hear you, hear love
again that sings softly within
and breaks not the heart
but breaks any silence

©RoseGirl2021