Stay Inside

Don’t go outside
farther than the border
of your skin
where you’ll find
a gap, an abyss
where eyes miss to see,
to be seen and to drown
where arms miss to hold
and be held
where fingers miss to touch
and be touched

But stay inside
where the heart
is full of him



Can you hear me, love
Can you hear my tears
even in the lonesome silence
Can you see,
can you witness
all my fears
even in the darkest darkness
of the night
Can you feel every piece,
all of me

Can you feel
yourself here
with me


What My Silence Means

My silence only means
I’m fighting to open
I’m fighting to close
Help me to find my voice
in the darkness
I’m dying inside
I’m trapped,
I’m broken
Fear wants to run away
I want nothing more than
to connect
But can’t reach your hand
Hear my screaming silence
through the walls
and love me


Ebb And Flow

If it feels like the sea
has abandoned her
and she’s been left
scared and alone
on her shore
as its water pulls back
its waves
roll away from her
she just needs to breathe
to see the sea
doesn’t go anywhere
and the tide will turn


I Hold You

I hold you dearly
within the rain, the storm
the pain, the thoughts
within these words
in all that I know
in the unknown
in yesterdays
in days to come
in far away
in so, so close
I hold you
even if my arms now
have nothing to hold


Even If

And I just let the day begin
let my feet move
my words write
even if the night
is still in my head
even if love can’t reach me
and loneliness fills up the lack of you
even if thoughts fight each other
even if I want to curl up in the dark
even if fears seem much bigger than me
even if I don’t want to write
don’t want anything or anyone
don’t want to be so vulnerable
even if I just want to be
with you


Wordless Love

My love, can I write you
when my night falls apart
when darkness hurts the eyes
rain keeps falling
and clouds cover the stars

Can I write you
my wordless loneliness and fears
with the pen of my thoughts
and will you write back to me
your love?


The Source Within Her

If it feels like love can be taken
from her anytime,
she can lose it,
she has to earn it
and therefore she needs to run
before more hurt will come,
she doesn’t see
that love is the source
deep within her soul
what she breathes
what her heart beats
what she is
And the only thing
that deprives her of it
are her fears and thoughts



A wounded bird hides
in the tree
Just one big sigh, one more
push of the wind
and its vulnerable heart
could break for good
but if it would stay
invisible behind branches
and leaves
it wouldn’t experience
the strength of its own wings
and their ability to fly high


The Moon Is Just The Moon

They can say nasty things
about the moon
They can be mean to her
They can attack her
And she could scream it out
in the night because
of the unfairness
-but does it say anything
about the moon
or more about the eyes
that judge her

And the moon; she couldn’t say
or do anything more
she could hide herself
to not get hurt again
– but that would make her
invisible to the eyes that
appreciate her shine
in the dark, too



And you have to get up today
and straighten your back
to stand up once more
even if you’re shaky and afraid
of what needs to be done
and the task seems difficult
Just breathe
feel that anchor, that bond
with him, your precious beloved
and be armored with
the power of love