Tag: Twin Flames

How The Two Lovers Of True Love Are In Heaven And Prepare Themselves For This Life’s Incarnation

I say: ‘My true love, before we descend
to earth again
Let’s first check the script
of our new life’

You say: ‘Good idea, my sexy sweetie,
It’s a soul contract we have
So we need to sign
it first.’

‘Hey! I thought we are now
in our ego free state
Why then do you
still call me ‘sexy’

‘Your sexiness is timeless,
my sexy sweetie
And even as an angel
you are very sexy.’

‘Okay, as I am without ego
I will not be flattered
But let’s now read
the contract

Oh look what I see here
Oh man, oh man
We will have an age gap
You will live on the other side
of the world
But Mr. Destiny himself
will bring you to my country
And what do I read here
What the hell!’

‘We are in heaven, sweetie’

‘Oh yeah, sorry
But oh man, oh man
First you will be really hot with me
But then you will act coldly
And temporarily
We also need to separate

You won’t tell me yet
that you love me
And then I need to trust
and have faith blindly!
Whereas I will reassure you all the time
That you are the love of my life
I will shout it from the rooftops!
This is really not fair
I’m not agree
Can I complain somewhere?
Who wrote this crazy scenario?’

‘It is God
who made this all up
As we need to learn
certain lessons
And he then made
a story of it’

‘Holy shit!
Do you see how many tears
I will cry
about you!
Rivers and rivers!’

‘Yeah, but then read here
How much turmoil
you will bring to my life!
And I need to freak out
about you all the time!

‘I think I liked
our previous life more’

‘May I remind you,
my sexy sweetie,
That you have been killed
In that lifetime
And then it was me
that needed to cry
those rivers and rivers?’

‘Yeah but this is really
a bad story, my cutest cutie
It’s too absurd
No one will believe this
It’s all really not fair
what you will say to me.’

‘But it’s me that will suffer a lot!
As we have this age gap
I need to spend
a big part of my life
without you
And all alone!’

‘Yeah, that’s true
Poor you, poor you.
But maybe,
we can adjust it a bit
I’m willing to sign
But at least,
can I have a romantic wedding
with you in the end?
Oh and can you also add:
I want a romantic white wedding dress
Oh and another thing:
Chocolate cake.
I want a lot of chocolate’

‘You can have it all, my sexy sweetie
But remember, we are in an ego free state
Why then this craving for chocolate?’

‘Because angels do like
chocolate very much too.
But it’s time for you to descend now
Don’t forget, my cutest cutie
Even though,
you won’t see me yet
for many years
I’m always around
I’m always by your side
And I will already appear in your dreams
And you will long for me in your songs.’

‘Okay, I won’t forget
Our love is stronger than strong
Let’s do this,
High five, my sexy sweetie
See you on the other side
That’s the spirit!’

©RoseGirl2018

Our Hearts Will Hold Us

In stormy weathers,
And even if we
can’t hold ourselves
no more

Our hearts will always hold us
closely together
Tightly connected
We can never fall,
can never drift away
As we are held
by the strong arms
of our love

In this embrace
we can relax, my dear
As our hearts
will take care of us

©RoseGirl2018

Drown In My Eyes

Only you are allowed
to drown in my eyes
to dive into the depths
of my sea
And then in my heart
You will find the lifebuoy
that will let you float
that will let you dance
forever on my sea of love

©RoseGirl2018

When I Think Of You

I think of you
And feel
how waves of love roll
over me
how I get tears of love
in my eyes
by only the thought of you

How I can feel you
so close
as if you were here
even
when you’re not

How everything around me
looks brighter
When I only imagine
to look in your eyes
again

How I hear
your songs come alive
in the depths of my heart
In this feeling inside

How I could
dance and dance
to music
only we can hear

I think of you
And by only the thought of you
I love you even more

©RoseGirl2018

How The Two Lovers Of True Love Share Their Love Story On Stage

‘Why are all those people
in front of us, my cutest cutie?’
‘We are on stage, my sexy sweetie’
I say: ‘Oh no! I just woke up,
I’m not even dressed up properly’

You say: ‘Don’t worry, my true love
You always look good and sexy
Even if you would be
in your pyjamas
or even with your hair messy.
But all those people came especially for us
They want to hear about our very special love
And we gonna share it with the world’

‘Oh yes, I will tell them
How we met four years ago
How our eyes locked
And oh man, oh man,
How heaven came to earth
And then, and then!’

‘Take it easy, my sexy sweetie,
You start to shine so brightly now
You provide your own spotlights’

‘Sorry, but I cannot help
Because when I talk about you
I always start to shine
I adore you,
I love you so truly
Already from the start.
And look at the audience
They are in awe
I think they really find it sweet

But now I will tell
about what happened next
I will tell all details
about our sweet love story

How you started to run
And I started to chase
How things got a bit complicated
How you did everything
to push me away
You made up stories
And even let a friend do
the dirty job’

‘Oh no, my sexy sweetie,
Can we please leave this part out??!!
Look at the audience, they are all in shock!!!
Let’s not make it too realistic!’

‘No, because we are building up
to the most exciting part
We don’t want it to be too boring
Every story has its struggle
After rain comes the sun again
And it all made our love even truer
And we both grew stronger

So now we come to the spectacular final
How of course, we’ve found each other back
But in fact, we never lost
As we have this special heart connection
Anyway,
then we lived very happily ever after’

‘Ohhh my sexy sweetie,
it even brought tears to my eyes
And look at all the people
They are cheering,
they are clapping
I think it is a huge success
And now we can end the show
And sing our happy love song’

‘But I prefer to dance
And you can sing
Or I will say one of my poems’

‘No, let’s have it all
We dance, we sing poetry
We play the music together’

‘Ohhh my cutest cutie
You want things really
to be wild
You are so romantic
It is getting so exciting
And oh man, I want to do
some other things with you
that are a little bit private
Let’s do that in the after show’

‘Good idea, my sexy sweetie
we’ll close the curtains
And then we’ll have our own
wild private after party.’

©RoseGirl2018

Radio Station Of Love

Our energy
is on the same frequency
We share the same waves
We only need to tune
into our hearts,
into our radio station of love
to hear the tunes
of our thoughts,
our feelings,
our bodies,
our dreams
And to dance along
with the sounds of love

©RoseGirl2018

Let’s Shake

If you feel those shakes inside
And your thoughts run like crazy
Your nerves almost break you down
Let’s then shake together
We’ll dance the shake
And we’ll shake together those shakes away

©RoseGirl2018

Bouncing Back

There is an elastic cord
between us
So in fact,
We cannot get lost
We can never fall
We can never lose
Because in the end
We will always bounce back
to each other

©RoseGirl2018

My Dark Parts

Previous: The Trouble With You Is That You Love Me

You see the light in me
You see my beauty
But do you also see my dark parts
And my dark days?
Do you read between the lines
What I hide in my poems?
When I am lost and I
do not believe no more
When I lie on my bed
And can only cry
Perhaps,
I am not who you think I am
Maybe,
I am not a queen, nor a fairy woman
And not a wild rose
I am not that strong
and colourful
As my heart breaks on and on
And often, I am just a scared cat
Then I don’t like myself
Please, don’t love me no more
Run away from me as far as you can.

My dear wild rose,
I see you in every poem,
I even see you on a blank page
And on your darks days,
I see your light shine
I see you in your tears
I see you in your smile
And my eyes
find you when you are lost
I see the wild rose blossom
I see how it can blossom even more
If you would only believe
in it yourself
And after all what I have seen
Tell me, how on earth
could I then not love you no more?

©RoseGirl2018

Her Smile

She shares her smiles like sun rays
A little gift of light
and empathy
To warm the hearts
she meets

She gives her smile
to a beggar woman
that almost seems invisible
As she gave up to
hold out her hand
to people who pass by

A smile to a young mother
that looks helpless
and exhausted
As her child
doesn’t stop to cry

She gives a smile to the cashier
that doesn’t seem to like her job
But she has a lot of worry
If she’ll have enough money
to survive the end of the month

She gives a smile to a guy
whose head is hanging down
And whose mood
seems depressed
As he sees darkness all around

She shares her smiles like sun rays
But the brightest smile
she keeps
for the One who
makes her smile
And who she’ll meet
when she returns home

©RoseGirl2018

My Fruits

All the fruits I bear
The poems I write
Are there
only for you

So take them,
Taste them,
Consume them
And let them
nourish you,
fuel you
from the inside

As they could only
grow and ripe
in the light
of your Sun

©RoseGirl2018

The Way I Love You

The way I love you
is the way of deep waters,
and playful waves
The way of a burning fire
The hope of a morning sky

The way a fierce,
passionate storm blows
The way silent words speak
The way of a gentle breeze
The way of a solid rock

The way of a big symphony
Of a simple, true song
The way of a touching poem
The way of a wild rose

The way I love you
Is the way I go
The way I dance, I talk,
I write, I walk, I breathe, I dream

©RoseGirl2018

The Trouble With You Is That You Love Me

You write about the light
you see in me
And about all the beauty
I radiate
But don’t you see my dark parts
My dark days, all my heaviness?
How could you still love me
if you would know about that
You make a God of me
Where I am not
Perhaps,
I am not who you think I am
Maybe,
I am not a king nor a fairy man
I will show you my ugliness
so you will see
Please don’t love me no more
I do not deserve
As the trouble with you
is that you love me.

My dear fairy man,
I do see your dark parts
I do see your struggle
But I see how they hold
the light within
As I have the eyes of true love
I see right through you
I see all that you are
And I see all of your gold
The trouble with you
is that you don’t fully
believe in it yourself
Show me your ugliness
And I will see the beauty
Show me your bad
And I will find the good
The trouble with me
then is that I will love you
even more

©RoseGirl2018

Your Well

Let me be your well
From which you can drink
My liquid of love
will quench your thirst
If you come out of the desert
Then recharge and rest here
at my source that is pure

If you are on fire
And all is burning
Let me be your water
that calms you down
and where you can float on
Let me be your shower
that washes away
all the dirt

Come to drink here
Come to taste here
all the flavors of love

©RoseGirl2018

Keep Each Other On Track

We need to hold hands, my love
And keep each other on track
I feel I want to run away
and hide
Erase every trail
I feel I want to take back
the road of the past
The light in front of us
is bright
and I’m scared
Let us walk forward
And don’t look back
Our hands
will hold us on track
Steady we go
And step by step
we will grow
in the love

©RoseGirl2018

Love Is Stronger

Even when the thunder rages through the sky
Seasons come and go
Storms strike the land
And huge waves hit the sea

Even when the night is deepest dark
The rain falls upon us
The river flows tumultuously
And the water takes

Like a sun that keeps its shine
A tree rooted firmly
A mountain that stands its ground
A hidden life force underneath

Like a rock that cannot be split
A flame that cannot fade
Words cannot damage it
And whatever you and me do

Our love is stronger
than anything

©RoseGirl2018

How The Two Lovers Of True Love Have Their First Fight

Previous: Flying Into Our Tale

‘Oh shitty shit!’ I say
And you ask:
‘What is the matter, my true love?
‘My cutest cutie,
I wrote in my poem
That we need to fly into our tale
But I took it a bit too literally
And then I jumped from above.
I can imagine a lot
But unfortunately,
My fairy wings weren’t there
So then I fell
down to the ground.’

‘What the hell,’ you say
And I say:
‘Yes it is truly true
I have this tendency
to take things too literally
Especially when it comes to
what you say, sing and do.
And then another habit,
I also tend to make in my mind
Bad scenarios all the time.
And then I panic about it.’

‘What the hell! you say,
Oh no! my sexy sweetie!
And then you keep telling me
that I need to fly
And you keep wondering
why oh why I don’t do it.’

I say: ‘Yes indeed you need to fly,
My cutest cutie!
And to overcome your fears
And to just fly over to me’

You say: ‘Stop telling me what I need to do
Cause if I get it correctly
You are the one that needs to fly
You need to fly out of your mind
And to trust the better stories!’

I say: ‘Oh shitty shit my cutest cutie!
If I get it correctly
Do we have our first fight now
It’s starts to get really exciting.’

You say: ‘Yes I do think so,
my sexy sweetie,
but I love you anyway’

I say: ‘Ohhh I love you too!
And our true love can survive anything.’

You say: ‘Indeed. And the good thing about a fight,
is that we can make it up,
so now kiss me.’

I say: ‘Oh yes let’s kiss,
for sure
Let’s take that very literally.’

©RoseGirl2018

Flying Into Our Tale

Here we stand, my fairy man
And we need to fly
Spread your wings, my fairy man
Why do you still hesitate?
Are you afraid
to leave your land behind
Where everything is so well-known
Are you uncertain of the new land
and if its harvest
will come your way?
But my fairy man,
we need to fly into our tale
It’s written especially for us
And its writer is smiling from above
As he already knows
True love will always find its way

©RoseGirl2018

Allowing The Sun To Come In

Yes she will love him into eternity
And she will wait for him always
Even if it would take one thousand years

And in the meantime
She will take care of herself
She will believe in their love,
in herself and in him
She will ground herself firmly
in her house of poetry
where the door is open for him
She will be strong
And will make of every day
the best
She will write, she will dance,
she will sing
with him in her heart
She will allow the sun
to come in

©RoseGirl2018

Down On His Knees For Her

And she loves him no matter what
Whatever he did or does
Whatever he said or says
Even if she is heartbroken
She continues to love him,
to support him
She understands and shows him
her boundless compassion
She continues to sing him
her songs of love from her heart
Let her words gently caress him
She forgives him
As she loves him always, forever,
no matter what

And now it’s his turn
to walk towards her
to go down on his knees for her
to let his kisses make up
To thank her and the heavens for this precious gift
To show her his love, his compassion
and understanding
To adore her, to admire her,
to sing for her,
to desire her,
To kneel for her before her eyes
And ask her to dance

©RoseGirl2018

Melting

Previous: Frozen

And when he rode out on his horse
there was a cold wind blowing from the east
He saw a figure in the distance
He rode closer
And there he found a frozen girl
with her ice tears still on her cheeks
It was his own girl, his wild rose

He took her
And let her melt in his arms
Warmed her with the fire of true love in his heart
And he carried her
all the way back to her house of poetry
And there he gently brought her inside
And said: ‘Continue to write, my love
For your poems will melt the world’

©RoseGirl2018

Frozen

And she took a hammer
And knocked all her words down
She left her house of poetry
She ran and kept running
She ran for the hills
Far out of sight
It was a cold day
And the wind from the east
made her tears freeze
on her cheeks

She ran until the cold
completely caught her
And what was then left of her
was a frozen still life of pain

©RoseGirl2018

Next: Melting

The Widow

And when her man left
It was like he was dead
She grieved and she mourned
She cried all day long
At the grave
In which she had buried
all the painful memories
That still came to haunt her
in her nights without sleep
She was a widow of her man
And she veiled herself in black

But her man had never been dead
He had only left
to catch the sun for her
And the day when he came back
to bring her his offer
He couldn’t find her no more
As his wild rose had withered
And she now was the black widow of sorrow

©RoseGirl2018

Imagine We Dance

My love, if things are hard
and dark and we feel lost
We just close our eyes
and we imagine
we dance
with each other

We just keep
moving
You hold me closely
And I embrace you

We dance until
the sun begins
to shine again
And until we see
the rainbow appear
in our tears

©RoseGirl2018

When The Bird Falls From Her Tree

Once there was a bird
And one day her tears got so heavy
That she fell from her tree
Down on the ground she was
She was a heart-wounded bird

She crawled to a corner of the forest
Where she laid down
As if she was dead
She hid herself
underneath some leaves
In her tears she drowned

She lost all hope
that one day
she would be together
with her male counterpart
She tried to recall
All what had happened
She cried and asked:
‘why oh why’

Then there was a wise owl
who had watched it all
And he said:
‘Oh bird,
why are you weeping around
And you don’t use your wings
Why did you stop to sing?’

She answered:
‘I found my true love
The one I have been looking for
all my life
But now he doesn’t love me no more
I lost him
As he forgot about me
and without me he moved on’

The wise owl smiled:
‘How can he forget you
As your song is sung
in his heart
And how can he not love you
As the love that is true
You can never lose’

But how can he recognize
and find you
If you weep and hide
Underneath the leaves
He only left
to find his strength
And to let you find
your strength too
So one day you can both
return home
to the powerhouse
of your true love

So now, get up
and use your wings again
You are meant
to fly in the blue skies
Sing your own song
So he can hear it
gloriously in his heart’

Slowly she rose
And she looked up again
She spread her wings
And flew back to her tree
She started to sing

And he,
in his forest far away
Started to smile
As he heard the song
of his counterpart
be sung in his heart

©RoseGirl2018

Two Poems By A Teenage Girl: December Grey & Hope

(Picture: me on the left in 1996)

Two poems I wrote when I was a teenage girl. I translated them into English.

I wrote this poem in 1996:

December Grey

Silent city of the nameless
touched by nightly sleep
A screaming reality is veiled
in neon light
Escaped from a misty memory

And loneliness whispers into the night
In the distance a song is sung
Unheard longing of a homeless seeker
For the nameless, they do not understand

I wrote this poem in 1998:

Hope

Hidden in the darkness
In the deepest black
A small light cautiously beckons
There in the farthest distance
Where life dances in the flame
It shines towards me
But then; the fear
that I burn my fingers
increases the doubt that rages
Because in the black hole
everything is black and cold
Where can I find the strength then
to reach for the stars?
The will leads to the light
and in the light there is the source
Myself that is all I own
Back to the core, back to home

©RoseGirl2018

The Greatest Story Of Love

Let me be our storywriter
And in all what we did and do
In all what we said and say
I’ll find the beauty,
I’ll find the love

Let me transform our storyline
and heal the pain
I’ll find comfort and hope
Even on the darkest page
I’ll let the words dance,
will let my sun shine on
every spot, every corner,
every shadow
And then I’ll write, we will live
the greatest story of love

©RoseGirl2018

For G. -Gangsters In Love

This is for you, G.
It sounds like a gangster name
Because that’s what we are, G.
We are gangsters in love
Lovers in crime
Of course I would like
to have our full names on billboards
Along with our pictures
So the whole world knows about us

And then we put ‘WANTED’ on it
Because that’s what we want
I want you, you want me
And then we aren’t just G. and M. anymore
We show everyone our true gangster faces
As we commit our crimes of love:
Me loving you
You loving me

But, oh man
It’s a jungle out there
It’s a fucking hell
So for now
I will just call you G, G.
But you fucking know who you are, G.
And I know who you are too, G.
Because that’s why I fucking love you

*This poem is based on fictional realism. Any resemblance to actual persons is purely intuitive or just accurate.
The author M. who prefers to stay anonymous, is only responsible for the last sentence and confesses to be fully guilty of that.

©RoseGirl2018

Sleepless Nights

I lie in my bed
Tears on my cheeks
My fairy man,
Will you please
come flying through
my bedroom window
And then
your arms around me
You kiss me goodnight
You say it will be fine
You take my tears for me
And give me my sleep

©RoseGirl2018

Secrets

We walked through the forest together
Side by side
On a cold day in February
You told me about a new song
on your mind
And about finding a home

I told you my secret
I had never shared it
with anyone before
How I was captured
in a violent nightmare
And you showed me
the way out

But I didn’t tell you
My other secret then
That it was you
who I secretly loved

©RoseGirl2018

A Girl’s Dream

I remember,
I was a teenage girl
And the Dutch winter was cold
With a friend I skated on
the frozen ditches and lakes

And one day when
we were tired of the ice skating
We went inside to see a movie
It was then that I watched
for the first time ‘Dirty Dancing’

I was in awe
I was breathless
Never had I watched such a film before
I wanted to watch it
over and over again
And although the Dutch winter was cold
Dirty Dancing made it all hot

It coloured all my romantic girl dreams
How a guy and girl that had to conquer huge obstacles
In the end lived the ultimate love story
And of course
I also wanted so badly
to dance so dirty
with the man of my dreams
It made me long for
my own dirty dancing man

And now,
many years later
I hear ‘The time of my life’
on the radio
And I see the final Dirty Dancing scene
in my mind again
How the girl is lifted by the guy

And then I realize,
In you, my love,
I’ve found my dirty dancing man

©RoseGirl2018

Time Of My Live – Dirty Dancing Scene

Old Poems

I found some old poems
that I wrote as a child
and as a teenager
Words of sadness
and of dark nights

How I was
so much lost in the world
And tried to find
my way home
How I yearned for love
And for ‘the other One’

And now I realize,
Already back then
in my old poems
I looked and longed
for you

©RoseGirl2018

The Fragrance Of My Heart

Do you smell the sweet scent
of a rose
That comes like a
breeze of Spring
dancing towards you
It lightly caresses your nose
And then
it heavenly infuses you
Seduces you
Pulls you
Magnetizes you
Wants to fully take you in?
That’s the fragrance of my heart

©RoseGirl2018

Among The Shitting Wild Cows

This morning among the shitting wild cows by the river Waal in Nijmegen the wild rose recorded a video while she danced on her high heels in the wild cow shit.

If the love flows….. things can get really wild

CLICK HERE TO WATCH THE VIDEO

Lyrics of the song:

There are days
that thoughts arise
and big mountains appear

Days that we don’t know
what to do
And all feels troubled
and unclear

But if the love flows
We don’t need to worry no more
For all is the right time
And that’s just fine

We help one another grow
We learn, we dance, sing and create

Every day we
come closer to our dream
And everything is safe and well
As long as we believe

And if the love flows
We don’t need to worry no more
For all is the right time
And that’s just fine

We give it all to God
We give it to the stars
And then we only need to love

©RoseGirl2018

By The Grace Of Your Eyes

Before your eyes
I blossomed
Your gaze was the sunlight
that shined me up
into the air

All the tales I told you,
Your eyes were the
magic wand that gazed
the fairies into it

And still
every word I write
comes alive only
by the grace of your eyes

©RoseGirl2018

Mirror

We both look into the mirror
And I see myself reflected in you
You mirror me my shadows,
my wounds,
and my deepest fears

Do you see yourself
reflected in my mirror
Please, don’t look away
Do you see how the light
of our love shines into it
and makes all visible
so we can heal?

Please use the mirror
Shine your heart’s light
into it
As bright as you can
I will do the same
Through the mirror
I will then mirror you
You will mirror me
and reflect it back

©RoseGirl2018

Morning Coffee

I sit on the couch
My legs tucked
I drink a coffee
The clock is ticking
I tap the cup
with my fingers
I sigh
My eyes stare
My heart misses
Through the window
a morning sun shines
I wonder,
You on the other side
of the world
Where the night has fallen
Do you see me
in your dreams
Like I dream you
in the morning sun

©RoseGirl2018

The Fire Of Desire

Do you feel how under our love
the fire of desire is burning
We won’t tame the flame
no longer,
We let the fire rise
Let our bodies express our love

Want me, desire me, take me,
Kiss me, feel me, taste me
Hungrily, thirsty
I want you, desire you, taste you,
receive you

With our fierce fire
we burn away all
that is not of love
All our fears, all our doubts,
all our worries, all our thoughts
Our minds fade away
In our fire of desire
In our hunger for each other

Oh my love,
do you feel the fire burning
do you feel the fire rising
Wildly we dance its flame
We do not need to think
We only need to feel
We are just bodies
that express
our boundless, untamed love

Fireworks
We are the storm in the sky
We are the fire itself
We don’t withhold any longer
Express all our emotions
in this fire of desire
We burn high into the sky
And clear ourselves,
Clear our love

©RoseGirl2018

Clarity

The water is troubled
There are ripples of thoughts
We just let the water be the water
We won’t touch, won’t stir it up
But we’ll find the stillness
in the deeper depths of our love
And then the untouched troubled water will find clarity itself

©RoseGirl2018