I didn’t trust love
I wanted to control the river,
wanted to hold back or push the waters

I built dams, threw stones in it
And digged the sand out
to let the river change direction
I worked and acted
I did everything
to prevent me from being still

I thought I needed to earn
I needed to prove
And worked even harder
For me to deserve
the love I knew it was mine
but didn’t dare to own

Often I thought
the river wasn’t even real
And just a mirage in my mind
That could be taken away
from me anytime
And because I didn’t trust love
I didn’t trust you, I didn’t trust me

But now, oh beautiful river,
I don’t want to
control you any longer
Please flow
and I will trust
That true love will find its way
on its own always
to where it belongs

©RoseGirl2019