Trusting Love

I didn’t trust love
I wanted to control the river,
wanted to hold back or push the waters

I built dams, threw stones in it
And digged the sand out
to let the river change direction
I worked and acted
I did everything
to prevent me from being still

I thought I needed to earn
I needed to prove
And worked even harder
For me to deserve
the love I knew it was mine
but didn’t dare to own

Often I thought
the river wasn’t even real
And just a mirage in my mind
That could be taken away
from me anytime
And because I didn’t trust love
I didn’t trust you, I didn’t trust me

But now, oh beautiful river,
I don’t want to
control you any longer
Please flow
and I will trust
That true love will find its way
on its own always
to where it belongs



      1. Perhaps I made it too simple in my last comment.. there is more to it.. I often tend to psychologize (is that a word?) it too much which is also a way of wanting to control haha
        I should just let my mind out of it 😉

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      2. 🙂 I think you just figured it out lol We all want to have some control over things. Some of us want more and others are content with less. 🙂

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