A day that feels like a heavy stone
I try to lift it
But it falls out of my hands
The whole world rests on my shoulders
And I can’t get my feet off the ground
to dance
The tears are stuck in my heart
They don’t want to flow through my eyes
I try to write but the words don’t want to move
A ship of poetry that sinks with its poetess on it
And yet, my darling, as I promised
you, myself
I’m still holding on to love

©RoseGirl2019

There are moments that are perfect
when I feel you so strongly with me
as though you were here
Your energy as a presence
around me and within
That makes me feel complete
and deeply in love

And there are moments when
energy is not enough
And I crave for your physical presence
To feel your arms, your skin
Your body
To hear your voice directly
To smell you and look into your eyes

And then I’m a restless seeker
Cut into two pieces
Soul pain that is physically felt
A body that is homesick
And I could scream, run
look everywhere
for you, my other half
The way Isis sought
her Osiris
The way Juliet grieved over
her Romeo
And then I’m just an earthly
character in our story
And can do nothing but
to wait for angel wings
to save me once again
as they let me rise above
the illusive world

©RoseGirl2019

My head explodes with headaches
that blow up my mind
and suck me
into a black hole of nauseous pain

My love, with your arms around me
Let’s float away
to another universe
Where pain does not exist
And where together we count
the shooting stars
that fall as blessings upon us

And where what is One
will remain One always

©RoseGirl2019

A fire burns me down
I am the Notre Dame
My structure falls apart
My tower collapses
Brutal, burning pain
rages through my temple
There is nothing left to do now
but to pray

But see, my altar of love
is still standing
My holy grail for you is saved
And if everything inside me is ashes,
rebuild me with your hands
let your love be my foundation
from which I can rise again

©RoseGirl2019

I miss you so much, my love
Sometimes it almost drives me nuts
This feeling of missing you
that no tear can cry off my heart

Though I always feel you with me,
it’s the look of your eyes
The embrace of your arms
that I want to see and feel
And that I miss so much

And I could try now to make
a beautiful poem of it
To take some metaphors
But sometimes reality
is not that poetic
And poetry cannot soothe
an ‘I miss you’

©RoseGirl2019

My love, the days without you
are empty spaces,
I can’t fill up with words no more
The days without you
are like sand that slips through
my fingers,
happiness I can’t truly hold
Even the heavy, solid tears
that drop from my eyes
leak through

My days, my hands,
empty, bottomless
as they want to hold you

©RoseGirl2019

The earth shook,
wept, screamed
and burst of pain
The town came down
Only ruins remained
And this morning
it is so quiet that
you can hear tears fall

But why, oh why
does the sun still rise
why oh why does it make
the light dance
that shines on
the broken pieces

It is love that can’t stop to love
that comes as the wind,
strokes her face,
caresses her wounds
and moves her once again
to get up

©RoseGirl2019

When in the darkest of the night
you lie down on the ground
With swords stabbed in your back
Wounded and unarmed
All what is left is to surrender
to die and to shed
another layer of you
To turn your head to the side
to look at the rising light
of the dawn on the horizon
For there’s a power
much greater than you

©RoseGirl2019

And I roar underwater,
scream in air bubbles,
shout in slow-motion,
cry a sea of tears

Heaven is a blurred image
above me
And the ocean around
is wide and deep

Please help me find
the sunken city of Atlantis
and let us raise
out of the waters
paradise anew

©RoseGirl2019

And while I lie in my bed
and I stare in the dark
I try to find you everywhere

I search in memories,
in my heartbreak
I even feel with my hand
next to me in the bed

My body aches
as I suffer from phantom pain
I’ve been amputated
of my other half
Part of my soul
that has been cut off
And I just want it
to be whole again

©RoseGirl2019

There is always the whisper inside
that says ‘I miss you’
I try to cover it with optimistic poetry
But sometimes,
it is a heartbreaking scream
That, with all its force,
breaks through the ceiling
And leaves me wretched
among shattered pieces of
heart and words

©RoseGirl2019

Please wipe away my tears, my love
And caress my bleeding heart in your hands
May I lay my heavy head to rest on your chest
May I sink into the comfort of the sound
of your heartbeat in my ear
My naked skin on yours
And your arms holding me
Until the night will pass
And the sun will shine again
Until there are no tears left
And my head and heart
can get up by themselves again

©RoseGirl2019

I am lost between hope and fear
Between dreams and nightmares
Between your heart and mine
Between teardrop and teardrop
Between sunset and sunrise
Between ceiling and bed

©RoseGirl2019

The muscles of my back and neck
are stiff and aching
I’m like a wooden doll
and can’t move no more

I am trapped in my body
Stuck on my bed
The tides that have thrown
a fish onto the land
And the fish has nowhere to go

The only thing that is fluid is
the waves of sadness rolling
through me
My ocean of longing for you
And I can only dance my way out
by poetry

©RoseGirl2019