May Both Hearts Know

When I listened to you
It suddenly hit me
I felt your pain and your fear
You’re so, oh so afraid
to be abandoned once again

And so you abandon all the time
You abandon people and places
You go out of contact,
You run away, disappear
And wander restless
around in this world
You won’t stay anywhere long enough
You are the one that leaves
Instead of others leaving you

Your pain, your fears
We’re so much interrelated
I feel yours as though
they are mine
Your tears and my tears flow
together into a common river

I kiss your wounded heart, my love
Please can you then kiss mine
I dress it with my touch
May both hearts heal and know
In depth they are whole
and they beat as one
And therefore
can never be abandoned by each other

©RoseGirl2019

Alchemists

Our soul connection
this infinite source of love,
creativity and inspiration
Let’s use the flame we have inside
And create beauty out of pain,
Love out of fear
As we transform our world,
our storylines
By our imagination, songs and poetry

©RoseGirl2019

Trusting Love

I didn’t trust love
I wanted to control the river,
wanted to hold back or push the waters

I built dams, threw stones in it
And digged the sand out
to let the river change direction
I worked and acted
I did everything
to prevent me from being still

I thought I needed to earn
I needed to prove
And worked even harder
For me to deserve
the love I knew it was mine
but didn’t dare to own

Often I thought
the river wasn’t even real
And just a mirage in my mind
That could be taken away
from me anytime
And because I didn’t trust love
I didn’t trust you, I didn’t trust me

But now, oh beautiful river,
I don’t want to
control you any longer
Please flow
and I will trust
That true love will find its way
on its own always
to where it belongs

©RoseGirl2019

No Roof

Your mind projects
limitations and barriers
obstacles and blockages
As bars in front of you
And now you are caught
behind a fence
Trapped in a cage

But you don’t realize,
That if you would look up
You would see
There is no roof on it
And there is nothing holding you back
to let your heart climb
or fly out

©RoseGirl2019

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry for the times that I hurt you
For the times that I let the voice of ego speak
Instead of the voice of love
When I reacted to you from a place
of fear, doubt or impatience
Instead from a place of patient, trusting love

I’m sorry for the times I didn’t love myself enough
The times that I needed something from you
That in fact, I needed to give to myself

©RoseGirl2019

Your Faces

My love, your faces
Your sad eyes in black and white
And then behind in colour
the you that tries
to make fun of himself

The you, the cool man in jeans
with a guitar under his arm
And the you that shows
through his eyes his heart
among the green leaves
The playful you that let out
his inner child
and dances in the fields

I love all of your faces
As they all are an expression
of you

©RoseGirl2019

In The Chinese Restaurant

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While in the far east the sun rises
And here the night falls,
Passion awakens
hungrily
at our table for two

Our feet meet
underneath the table
Our eyes meet
above
Our hands that caress
and entwine
Hearts that dive
in each other’s depths

My lips can already taste you
And want to take you in
Please feed me
with all what you are
You, my beautiful man,
For only you can truly
satisfy me

©RoseGirl2019

Rebalancing

The rain fell
And left a layer of water
on the ice
It’s like I skate
on a mirror
I see myself reflected
when I look down
Slippery is the ice
And a few times
I almost fall

I get scared
Fear hits me very hard
My body is uptight
And I almost don’t dare
to move anymore

But I came to dance
I came to glide
So I breathe
And rebalance
My focus on my body

Through the fear I move
I trust myself to balance
I breathe
And then I start to dance
again

©RoseGirl2019

The Solar And Lunar Eclipse Of January

The solar and lunar eclipse
overshadow my heart
And bring even more darkness
to the night
Fears have been stirred up
I’m so afraid to lose

But how can I lose you
As we are like yin and yang
in each other
Even though there are shadows around,
How can the moon lose the sun
and his light that shines upon her

But thoughts try to hold on
try to get back control
And then towers come down

Until there is nothing to hold on
no more but our love

©RoseGirl2019

Know

Know you have the arms of love
wrapped around you
and you are safe

Know you’re in each of my prayers
You have your place in each of my poems
My words are built around you
They are your pillars,
Your floor to walk on,
when it feels like all your foundation
is gone

Know that even though
you may think
you don’t know it anymore,
Your heart knows
And more you don’t need to know

©RoseGirl2019

The Roses Shirt – A Fated Connection

She saw in a picture that her beloved,
who lives on the other side of the world,
wore that night a new shirt with roses

She, on her side of the world
had been gifted, just a few hours before,
the same shirt
The person who gave it to her
didn’t know about him or
about her love for roses

So now on both of their chests
The same roses blossom
As a proof of their fated connection

©RoseGirl2019

The Lost Sheep

She was not like the other sheep
For she had a sensitive heart,
a poetic walk and dreamy eyes
Although she always tried
to fit into the flock
She never truly belonged

The other sheep that all dashed along
in the same direction,
She mostly went in the opposite

She then thought that she was lost
And alone she wandered in the world
She hoped for the shepherd
to leave his flock
to find the one that is lost

But instead the shepherd
sent her her counterpart
that is as dreamy and
sensitive as she is
And through him
she could find herself

©RoseGirl2019

No Limits

My love for you has no limits
It is not bounded by thoughts,
by country, by time or
by whatever you do

It just flows abundantly
Wherever it wants to go
Even if there are rocks in the river
It will still find its way to you

Even if my mind is confused
and runs away
My love for you stays as it knows
For what, for whom it is here for
and what is its truth

©RoseGirl2019

Reset

Okay. Now stop.
Let’s just press the reset button
We’ll clear out all the bugs
And we’ll set us to default
The origin where it all began:
Your eyes and my eyes met
Heaven came down
And from there, let it all
once again naturally unfold

©RoseGirl2019

Great Eagle

Great eagle, where are you
Please come to pick me up
And let me climb on your back
To see things from above

For the air is too heavy to breathe
down here
The rivers of emotions are drowning me
And all the trees
prevent me from seeing the woods

Great eagle, let us float in the sky
And see the bigger picture
I will expand my heart
And then all my thoughts will be just
little ants that crawl far below
While I will have clear vision
and see unclouded my beloved

©RoseGirl2019

As Long As I Skate

And I skate all alone
in the Dutch night
The Winter, all the cold
and all the distance
between us
I skate it all away
The pulsing warmth in my body
A pause between my thoughts
And the melody of poetry
in every move I make

And then there is just
you and me
I feel
in every breath, in every beat
My love, you’re so much here

In meditative circles I skate
The moon high above
She hides her biggest part
But she is here

And as long as I skate
this moment lasts forever
Always now and here
And you and me

©RoseGirl2019

I Understand – To Him And Her

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I understand
You both were scared

This love is just so big
It goes so deep
It transformed everything
Swept you off your feet
It is spiritual, and beyond
anything you thought was true
It overwhelmed
You didn’t understand

You tried to build your walls
To defend with stories from the past
Tried to apply your old ways
But those didn’t work
As this love asks
for a new approach

You both were scared
I understand

©RoseGirl2019

Mirroring Flames

You mirrored me
my biggest fears,
my insecurities,
my nightmares
Stories I had made up
in my mind,
You reflected them to me

In the mirror it showed up
for me to heal and to grow
out of ego and into love

You mirrored me my truest self
the purest depths
of my soul
So I could become
the best version of me

Like two dancing flames
we mirrored our light
and our shadows
In the window of love

©RoseGirl2019

If I Could

If I could
I would take over all your suffering
All your burden, I would carry it for you
I would protect you like a lioness
and would fight with your demons,
I would conquer all your fears

I would prevent you
from ever having pain
If I could
But I know, it won’t help you
I cannot save you
I can only hold you in the space of love
For you need to save yourself
It will help you to get stronger
And at the other end of pain,
into love you will grow

©RoseGirl2019

The Old Ways

The old ways are the beaten tracks
The well-worn paths trodden down
by the same footsteps

They are anchored in gone days
Safety nets for just in case
But they never really bring far
As they go round and round
The repetitive circles
The loop in your brain

Until you learned your lessons
And you step your way out
onto a new path

©RoseGirl2019

A Lot To Hide

You tried to hide your beauty,
the treasure of your heart

You barked like a dog
Showed your teeth
Dropped your shit
Jumped around
and ran like crazy

And I looked at you in awe
And could only see
how beautiful you are
for you have a lot to hide
if you act like this

©RoseGirl2019

Who Are You

Who are you
Is it what you were told
What people project on you
The words they give you
How they describe you
The image you have

Are you what you think that they think of you
What others want you to be
What you want yourself to be
Their expectations or your own

Or are you what you know
in your heart
The truth in your soul
And what the eyes of love
have reflected you?

©RoseGirl2019

You Flame In My Soul

You are in me
like I am in you
through the love we breathe
and that our hearts beat
through our veins

Through the words we write
The melodies we hear
The dreams we dream
The thoughts we think
The future we taste

Through what we know
What we create
Through what we have seen
And what is our fate

You flow through my body
You dance in my heart
You sound in my song
You fly in my mind
And you flame in my soul

©RoseGirl2019

The Tea Glasses

I met Jamal at the biggest refugee camp
of Europe, where I volunteered
They had put up tents
in the middle of the forest in Holland
to host 3000 refugees

After a horrible journey
Jamal had just escaped from the war in Syria
He was a middle-aged man
who had lost everything:
his home, his wife, his children
and his family

I invited him to have dinner at my place
He came together with another refugee and his child
They hardly spoke any English
We ate in silence

They all were very traumatized
The small child couldn’t play no more
And even the candy and the toy car
I had bought for him
Didn’t give him reason to smile

I gave Jamal my phone number
and told him that he could call me
whenever he needed help

A week later on a Friday night,
the phone rang
It was Jamal and he was completely panicked
I first needed to calm him down
And it took a while
before I could understand
what was going on
In his panic he had lost
all his English words

It turned out he had taken a bus
as he wanted to go to the city centre
but he had taken the wrong one
And now, he was in the middle of nowhere
He didn’t know where he was
And how he could come back
to the refugee camp

It took a while before I had figured out
where Jamal was
But then I immediately jumped in my car
to pick him up
He was beyond grateful

And then a few days later
the phone rang again:
‘Marieke, sorry, please, you come?’
I jumped in my car
to drive to the camp
as I thought there was another problem
that needed to be solved

But when I arrived Jamal smiled
he handed me a present
With his last money
he had bought four tea glasses
to thank me

The tea I drink from those glasses
somehow tastes different
As it fills me with deep gratitude
And then I realize what is truly important
And how we humans
are all connected

©RoseGirl2019

My Like

I wanted to react to your post
But I couldn’t find an emoticon
That would express:

‘I love you, I support you, I adore you,
I’m proud of you, I see you, I hear you
I appreciate you’

So then I just hit the like button
But please know
that my simple like
means all of the above

©RoseGirl2019

I Miss You

Missing you
can sometimes
hit me so hard
it takes away my breath
it squeezes my heart
it panics my mind

And then
I run for my words
to fill the
‘missing you’ gap
to build a bridge
And to find
you back
at the end
of my poem

©RoseGirl2019

My Hyperactive Great Grandmother

We called my great grandmother
‘grandma bus’
She always sat behind the window
And when a bus passed by
She hysterically yelled at us, small kids,
‘There is a bus!’
And there were busses every few minutes

My great grandma yelled, screamed, talked very loudly all the time
Since she was half deaf
And besides of that, she was hyperactive

Even at the age of 96
She stood in the middle of life
She wanted to know about everything
and seemed never tired
Every time when we had visited her
we as kids were completely worn out

She liked to watch soap operas very much
‘The Bold And The Beautiful’ was her favourite
And even on her death bed
she wanted the television to be turned on
So she wouldn’t miss a single thing

They asked her if she could accept
that she would die
She said she could
She had had a good life
and she believed heaven and the Lord would wait her

The only thing that was really a pity:
she then wouldn’t know no more
how ‘The Bold And The Beautiful’ would continue
And if Ridge and Taylor would finally come together

©RoseGirl2019