I don’t look back
As I dance my way
into the new year
I only take with me
the love
And at midnight
I shoot
poetry as fireworks
in the sky
to celebrate me and you
and to dance and write us
to a new year
©RoseGirl2019
Poetic Art From The Heart ~ Finding Beauty In Truth
I don’t look back
As I dance my way
into the new year
I only take with me
the love
And at midnight
I shoot
poetry as fireworks
in the sky
to celebrate me and you
and to dance and write us
to a new year
©RoseGirl2019
Lyrics of the song (Video of the song below)
A kiss on your forehead
My hands hold your face
My heart holds you in love
Until the end of days
Now close your eyes
You’re gonna fly
High up and far
On the wings of love
‘Cause I want you to dream,
to dream, to dream, to dream
Dream yourself free
From the monsters in your head
From the demons and the fears
From your worries and your past
And then, you will land
Here next to me
And if your heart feels heavy
And its weights pulls you down
Then remember you are light
For love you were born
‘Cause I want you to dream,
to dream, to dream, to dream
Dream yourself free
From the monsters in your head
From the demons and the fears
From your worries and your past
And then, you will land
Here next to me
CLICK HERE TO WATCH THE VIDEO RECORDING OF MY SONG
©RoseGirl2018
My beautiful man in suit,
I am your lady of the night
In this chic, vintage bar
With dimmed light
I am your moon
My face, my eyes light up
softly in the dark
My mystery will reveal itself
only to you
Elegantly I will dance you around
In my waters I will take you
In my kisses you will find the stars
That one by one fall from heaven
and land delicately on your skin
Please don’t be afraid of the dark
As my light will shine you through
©RoseGirl2018
I touch your chest
softly with my fingers
I do my magic
and make
all your stored heartbreak
disappear
I touch your forehead
and stroke away
your clouds and
your mind based fears
And then my fingers
will find their way
on their own
to all the parts
that need to be touched
and that ask
for a little bit of magic
of my hands
that like to touch
©RoseGirl2018
Previous: For G. -Gangsters In Love
Hey G! Man, are you still alive!
I know things have been fucking hard
You said life is a poker game
But actually it’s more a rollercoaster ride
It’s not about waiting for the winning hand
No man, it’s about how to survive the next loop
When you have been turned
completely upside down
And shaken to the core by all those G-forces of emotions
It’s the fucking wild west!
And we don’t have cute, romantic my little ponies
No, we have untamed horses to ride
So G, put on your Texas cowboy hat
We have our weapons of love
And we are going to shoot all
the monsters we make up ourselves
Because G, my gangster mate,
my lover in crime,
We need to claim our land
You know what is yours, I know what is mine
And G. by the way, man, I do confess
I still fucking love ya!
©RoseGirl2018
There is no way back
We can only move forwards
The roads of the past have been closed behind us
Friendships are gone
Things have been thrown
Contracts dissolved
Ties have been loosened
Although we might mourn
Lighter shall we go
And brighter our future
together will be
©RoseGirl2018
In the attic I sorted out
things from the past
There were old pictures, old letters
And all kind of objects
that have memories tied to them
– I always stored a lot
I went through different periods
of my life
And nostalgia, sadness and pride
caught me
I wanted to let go, I wanted to throw
the things that don’t serve me no more
But then, all of a sudden, I got scared
And I wanted to hold, I wanted to keep
Like yesterday grasped me by my ankles
And begged me to still have its feet
firmly in my today
I realized that memories
are not in those objects
But are stored in mind and heart
And the only way to move forwards,
and to be free, is to let go
©RoseGirl2018
There is no kingdom lost
As in fact, the king went never far
He thinks he left and all is gone
But on his head there’s still the crown
In his heart there is the throne
Before his eyes there is the queen
Just his mind runs in a hamster wheel
If he would only keep still
Then he would remember
Who he truly is
And he would see
That he’s still in the middle
of his kingdom
©RoseGirl2018
Like earth angels
we came flying from above
To sing our heart song
And scatter our
melodies of love
upon the world
And one day when it’s time
We will leave again
We will fly back together
into the realm of forever
While on earth
the echo of our love
will still be heard
©RoseGirl2018
We are facing each other
and we undress ourselves
One by one we unclothe
from everything
that is not of love
I am your mirror
You are mine
In the mirror we see
From which pieces we need to undress
There are the pieces of image,
of too much ego
The pieces of fears,
Of codependency and neediness,
Of experiences from the past
The pieces of walls
that have been built
We rip it off from our bodies
As our natural state
is to be free and to be
open to each other
Until we are naked,
We are back ourselves
And we are just as innocent
as our love
©RoseGirl2018
Tell me all about you
I want to know
What’s on your heart
I want to know about your hopes
Your dreams
The visions you have
I want to know about your tears
Tell me all your stories
What has driven you
Tell me about your shadows
and your fears
Your past, your present
Your struggles, your battles
Your rage, your anger
Your joy and your laughter
I want to know what’s in your body
Is there tension
or relaxation
Is there pain somewhere
I want to know what’s on your mind
about the dark clouds,
the happy thoughts,
the ones that are stuck
Tell me all about you
I will just sit by your side
And will silently listen
©RoseGirl2018
Courageous rose in the winter cold
With your heart open to catch
a little bit of sunlight
Fearlessly you bloom yourself up
And add colour to the grey, dark December sky
Nothing can prevent you from
showing your beauty
Rose of love,
Rose of me and you
May no one that sees,
no one that reads, ever forget
about your pure,
heart naked strength
©RoseGirl2018
It doesn’t matter
What lies behind us
Where we are right now
Or where the journey will take us
How many questions we might have
Even if we don’t have all the answers
If oceans need to be crossed
If waves need to be surfed
If worlds need to be conquered
If 5652 miles are in between
What has been said
If words lack
Or silence speaks
Because forever means forever
And we have this sacred bond
©RoseGirl2018
A fire dawns in the morning sky
Wilde dreams are made in heaven
And hope glows in the passion
painted on the canvas of a new day
©RoseGirl2018
I will love you through any wall
And right into your heart
I will love you straight through your fears
And back into peace
I will love you into love and
will love you back home
©RoseGirl2018
Oh girl, oh girl, there you go again
All day long you try to write your way
out of the sadness
But you cannot fight it with lines of poetry
As your tears keep catching up
with your pen
You try so hard to inspire
To be a light to the world
to yourself and your beloved
But if the waters need to flow
Just let them flow now
Let your teardrops rain down
And empty your clouds
from their heaviness
©RoseGirl2018
The wild rose in the field
She is covered with weeds,
She is hidden in the grass
And the weight of her hurt
pulled her head down
The rays of the sun cannot reach her
And she thinks she lost the light
Soon she will wither,
Soon she will die
But should she then wait
for the sun to find her
It might be already too late
Or should she strengthen herself
to rise,
to get rid of her burden
and find back her light
so up in the sky the sun can meet her?
©RoseGirl2018
I need to hold myself
And stand on my own feet
I cannot expect anyone to do it for me
Not even you
I can ask the stars and the moon,
the owls and the shamans
But no one will know better
As all my answers lie within
It’s about drying the tears
and get up again
No matter how many times
Even when it feels like all is dying inside
It’s about connecting to the flame
And come back to life
As two hearts that can hold themselves,
are even more powerful together
when they hold each other in love
©RoseGirl2018
It’s night
and I drive on the highway
The road before me is endless
And behind me it all seems to dissolve in the dark
And I drive faster
as I try to silence my thoughts
by the noise of the engine
of my 23 years old car
I wonder,
did you once drive too
on this highway
And for a moment
I can see the road and my country
through your eyes
I smile
And all is fine
If I just keep driving
I could drive all night long
And dream in the comfort
of the heating in my car
And my eyes that follow
the white stripes on the road
As long as I don’t need to go home
The house will be cold
And dark and alone
Just a house made out of stone
Since you are not there
And with you I have my real home
©RoseGirl2018
Maybe Christmas came too early this year
And I wasn’t ready yet,
We weren’t ready
As it came but it didn’t bring us together
And then the darkness was dark
The sun seemed far away
And the waters were flowing
But maybe Christmas came to teach
To find the light even in darkness
And to be like a cat and always look for the sunny spots
©RoseGirl2018
The Dutch sky is gray
A cold wind is blowing
Birds are floating
I fly along with them
Far above the land
And across the ocean
Into the sun and warmth
of California
Where the sky is blue
There, I will land in your arms
©RoseGirl2018
Go your own way, my love
Take your own steps
Learn your own lessons
Heal your own wounds
And then know,
you will always find me
along your road
to hold your hand
to see the beauty in everything you do
to cheer and to encourage you
As your truest, biggest fan
©RoseGirl2018
Eyes that gaze
at the horizon
A heart that longs
across the ocean
And waits for your ship
to come in
A melancholic song inside
A burning fire
Saudade, my love
Saudade
©RoseGirl2018
When I went outside
on Christmas day,
my heart heavy,
tears that kept running
and missing you like crazy,
I saw that the rosebush,
that had just lost her last roses
had new buds again
The rosebush, strong as our love
She braves the seasons
She stands her ground
And even when the rain rains her
roses from her branches,
Even when Winter and cold
come in,
She never gives up,
She continues to blossom,
to gift her beautiful roses
and to lighten hearts
©RoseGirl2018
Into the woods I go
Where trees are just trees
and don’t need to be decorated
But are stately by themselves
Their vibrating presence surrounds me
I run, I stamp my feet
May all my tears be released
And may mother earth carry my burden
When I can’t carry it myself no more
©RoseGirl2018
Christmas breakfast
tastes salty
As tears blend
with bread
And merge
with coffee
©RoseGirl2018
It doesn’t snow
but it rains teardrops
And she runs and runs
As she tries to leave Christmas
but Christmas doesn’t seem
to let her go
There are decorations and
Christmas lights
everywhere
Christmas songs and music
She tries to cover her eyes
and to cover her ears
She tries to cover her heart
as it is aching from inside
And the fire of longing burns her
She runs into the woods to hide
And she sinks to the ground
Under the cold starry night sky
There her beloved, her fairy man finds her
He takes her in his arms and kisses her
He says that all is fine, all is well
No more tears, no need to worry
And wishes her a true Merry Christmas
©RoseGirl2018
Christmas feels so big
And overwhelming
Too much too handle
So I’ll keep it small
Without the tree, the songs,
the lights, the gifts,
the decorations, the tears,
the expectations,
the bitter memories,
There is me here
and you there,
far away and overseas
But we are connected
In the intimate space
of our hearts
©RoseGirl2018
On Christmas Eve
There is me
And my paper, my pen
You in my heart
The love as a gift and
The Christmas tree
©RoseGirl2018
My love, I stand in front of you
I hold both of your hands
I look at you
Read in my eyes everything
you need to know
My eyes will soothe you,
comfort you, they kiss you
They are your land, your sea
Your sky and your fire
You can drown in them
They are your stars
and will shoot you
into your wildest dreams
Let them anchor you in me
See your own reflection
And see how beautiful you are
©RoseGirl2018
When it was not safe
to stay on the ground
Or when things were too painful
I always had my dreams
They were my balloons
I grasped for them
And they let me go up,
high into the sky
Where no one could
hurt me no more
My dreams and me
We had our own universe
Until the day that you joined
And now we can hold
the balloons together
But this time
We don’t need to go up
and fly away no more
We dream
With our heads in the clouds
Our balloons are even bigger
We hold them
But together
we can keep
our feet on the ground
©RoseGirl2018
I follow the little lights
along my path
And leave dark
memories behind
I carry the torch of faith
in my hand
And believe in you,
in myself, in life,
in love, in us
On my way to Christmas
©RoseGirl2018
In the middle
of all the turmoil
Of all the intense
energies and
emotions
There is just stillness,
There is just love
I am grounded
While everything
around me
whirls and storms
And I think of you
My heart feels you
And then
There is just clarity
There is just love
©RoseGirl2018
If you fall, I will catch you
If you stumble, I will balance
If you are puzzled, I’ll have your missing pieces
If you are speechless, I will say your words
If you are in darkness, I will be your light
If you are tired, I will rest you
If you are stuck, I will dance you
If you are asleep, I will make you feel alive
For I won’t let you down, I will only lift you up
©RoseGirl2018
Let’s meet in the space of love
Where right and wrong do not exist
There is no guilt, no shame, no blame
We only learn and grow
We do our best
And that’s more than enough
Let’s meet in the space of love
Where every day is a new day again
And behind the clouds there’s always the sun
Where we own ourselves
But we are one as well
Where all the details,
the past, the storylines
and even words
do not matter
The only thing that matters
is the love
©RoseGirl2018
Oh sexy man
The way you dance
your body, your eyes
your heart
I cannot help but dance
my body, my eyes
my heart
As if everything
vibrates within us
to the music of our love
©RoseGirl2018
And there she goes again
She skates over ice
Her cheeks glow
Her hair waves in the wind
There is music in her heart
And she dances and glides
There is only the now
And the rest she can forget
She is free
and feels so much alive
and in love
She is the only one left
The ice is her dancefloor
And it is all hers
Under the nightly sky
She makes the magic
While the full moon shines on her
She smiles and smiles
And thinks of him
And if it would be possible
She would love him even more
And then the rain falls
But even the cold water
that showers her glowing face
is a blessing
And she skates
for hours and hours
In the distance she sees
the Christmas lights
And there is magic
everywhere around and within
as she makes it
©RoseGirl2018
Guilt and shame
are the dirt in the waters of emotions
They are the burden on your shoulders
The vultures in the sky that
chase you and prevent you to fly
And that keep you tied
to your thoughts
………………..
The days of Christmas
have never been light for me
They used to be dark and heavy
With the burden of guilt and shame
pushing me to my knees
A little girl that was told that she was bad
That she had better not be born
That all the bad things that happened, were her fault
And for that,
she needed to be punished and beaten
And then, especially at Christmas
and on New Years Eve
I spent hours and hours
to name all the bad things they said I had done
And asked for each thing for forgiveness
Sorry that I had made my mother sick
Sorry that because of me my father needed to beat my mother
Sorry that I breathed
Sorry that I was born
And sorry, oh so sorry for who I was,
for all what I had said, sorry for me
I hoped for the mercy of Christmas
I hoped for the start of the New Year
that could clear my burden
of guilt and shame
But it somehow never worked
As there were always new things
for which I could be blamed
And even if they didn’t blame me
I then blamed myself
For years and years I carried
too much responsibility
As I felt guilty and ashamed of
all the problems in the world
…………………
Guilt and shame are not authentic emotions
that flow from the deeper well within
But they are mind- emotions
Created in the head space
by judgemental thoughts
that stem from blame
If you want to live from a place
of love
Tap into the deeper well within
Let go of the burden of guilt,
shame and blame
Clear the dirt on the surface of the waters
And set your heart free
©RoseGirl2018
And in a night in which
big waves of panic hit the shore
and make me gasp for breath
As I looked for you in my dreams
but could only find chasing thoughts
and empty nightmares
It is the moon that shines
full and round
And after the shortest, darkest day
She makes of the longest night
the brightest
As if she’d like to say:
‘My dear, please do not fear
Even if the night seems long and endless
I still reflect the light of my sun
And although you cannot see him
your beloved is with you
in the light within’
©RoseGirl2018
My love, sometimes
Words cannot say
Lines and rhyme fail
Poetry is speechless
When I want to write about
my love for you
And then it’s a blank page
it’s the depth of silence
that expresses more
©RoseGirl2018
The rain rained the last roses from the rose bush
And now their petals are scattered
over the garden path
as a last trace of beauty
Gracefully they show how strong
those last roses were
As they made it until midwinter
©RoseGirl2018
At midwinter the day is dark and short
As the sun has drifted away from the earth
Though he won’t go farther no more
As he has reached his maximum
The seasons will turn again
And the sun will move his way back
You and me,
The sun and the earth,
they keep each other in place
They can never really separate
Although the sun may run,
He will always return
But in fact, he never truly left
©RoseGirl2018
On the darkest day of the year
I shine my light within
and shine it across the ocean
So your heart can catch it
on your side of the world
And if you then shine your light to me
My heart will catch it
And we make a bow of light and love
together
across the ocean
On this darkest day of the year
©RoseGirl2018
She has a gift
She can see people into the soul
She can feel their energy,
see certain images
And then she knows things
she is not supposed to know
Already when she was a little girl
She had the eyes to see beyond veils
She could quietly observe from her corner
And then tell exactly what was going on
But what wasn’t said in words
But the adults didn’t like her gift
It scared them, it upset them
As they tried to hide things
They denied, called her crazy
And beat her a lot for her sensitivity
Though deep down she knew,
Her sharp inner eyes had seen the truth
As energy can never lie
She learned that reality is confusing
And in order to be accepted and loved
She needed to close herself off
and to hide her intuition
She imprisoned herself
Her mind took over
And she rationalized her gift away
Until one day she met her true love
And that opened her heart
She could break through her own bars
She could embrace her gift
As it is part of her soul
And now she uses it
for herself, for writing
and for helping other people
©RoseGirl2018
Sometimes when fears kick in
And too many thoughts
make my heart troubled
I imagine you here with me
How you hold me and caress my face
How you tell me it will be alright
And how in your arms
all the worries fade away
As it is the best place to be
©RoseGirl2018