The Days Without You

My love, the days without you
are empty spaces,
I can’t fill up with words no more
The days without you
are like sand that slips through
my fingers,
happiness I can’t truly hold
Even the heavy, solid tears
that drop from my eyes
leak through

My days, my hands,
empty, bottomless
as they want to hold you

©RoseGirl2019

On The Ruins

The earth shook,
wept, screamed
and burst of pain
The town came down
Only ruins remained
And this morning
it is so quiet that
you can hear tears fall

But why, oh why
does the sun still rise
why oh why does it make
the light dance
that shines on
the broken pieces

It is love that can’t stop to love
that comes as the wind,
strokes her face,
caresses her wounds
and moves her once again
to get up

©RoseGirl2019

Down On My Knees

When in the darkest of the night
you lie down on the ground
With swords stabbed in your back
Wounded and unarmed
All what is left is to surrender
to die and to shed
another layer of you
To turn your head to the side
to look at the rising light
of the dawn on the horizon
For there’s a power
much greater than you

©RoseGirl2019

Library Of Love

And I look at my work
All the poems, the stories,
the songs I have written
One by one
I catalogue them,
honour and preserve them
in our library of love

Each is a step in our journey,
a piece of the puzzle,
a stone of the cathedral
a truthful testimony
Documented with
the ink of true love

©RoseGirl2019

How The Heart Stream Of The Queen Brought The King Back Home

And when the king left
as he went on a quest
to find his own heart,
the queen could not stop crying
Day after day she cried her tears
for her beloved,
each teardrop a drop of love,
a drop of pain,
a drop of missing him

Rivers and rivers flowed
from her eyes
and dropped from the window
Until the people of the land
got worried:
‘Oh queen, you drown the kingdom
with all your tears.’
But the queen could not stop
the showers
that came from her heart

The land got overflowed
by the queen’s waters
Her liquid heartache
had caused a big flood
It reached all the way
to where the lost king
was wandering
And to save his world,
he built an ark

The heart stream of the queen,
all the fluid, shimmering love
took the ship
and brought the king
back to his kingdom,
back to where he belonged
with his queen he found his heart
that he had been searching for

After the queen had cried her last tears
above the land a rainbow appeared
a strong sun dried up the land
and on its fertile ground
the king and queen
built their new kingdom

©RoseGirl2019

Love Is A Free Verse

My heart cannot be caught
in rhyme schemes
Its butterflies cannot be caged
Limerick, Sonnet or Haiku
Love doesn’t want to be put
into concepts,
imprisoned in fixed forms
or placed in perfect structures
But it just wants to flow
into a river of
raw, poetic words
for love is a free verse in itself

©RoseGirl2019

Realness

In a world with so much fakeness
Where a word like ‘amazing’
is outworn and hollow
as it is used all the time
And where ‘I’m doing great’ only means:
‘I don’t want to show you
how I truly feel inside.’
My love, let’s be real together
with true, authentic hearts
for we don’t need to be
anything other than
the real you and me

©RoseGirl2019

Sleep Well

On your side of the world
the night has fallen
Just go to sleep
Surrender to the dark
behind your eyes
and fly high in your dreams
Here on my side of the world
I will hold up the light,
hold up the sun for you
and will root you in love

©RoseGirl2019

How Are You?

How are you, my love
What’s going on inside you
Please show me around
in your heart and mind
And together we’ll walk
through your rooms

You can even show me
the basement
the dark and the hidden
chambers
The thoughts that live there
the strange and the weird ones
the bold and the braves

The memories you stored
in the attic
The dreams you look at
through the windows
The monsters that haunt you
in your sleep

The feelings
of your inner climate
The cold and the hot ones
The showers
and the ones of fear

At all I will look
with a heart full of love
Because my image
on the walls everywhere
tells me
I’m here already well-known

©RoseGirl2019

Dancing In The Supermarket

On a lazy Sunday afternoon
The sun shines in the Dutch sky
I enter the almost empty supermarket
They play Nina Simone
‘My baby just cares for me’
And while carrying my shopping basket
I dance to the jazzy sounds
through the aisles
along shelves with bread,
dairy products and meat
And then I’m so consumed
by the vibes of dancing,
That I forget half of the groceries
But who cares
’cause I care for my baby
And my baby just cares for me

©RoseGirl2019

Signaling

Last night you woke me up
I felt your presence
A strong burning
heart connection
with you

Was it the thought of me?
Did you miss me?
Did you send me love?
So powerful
that it kissed me
out of my sleep?

Our hearts are always
signaling
to each other
Bridging the ocean,
Bridging dimensions
to connect

©RoseGirl2019

Time Traveling

I walk through my city at night
And if I could time travel,
I would go back to 2013
and would walk here with you

Back then we had not met yet
If we only had known
how close we were from each other
how our timelines almost crossed
Did our energies already lightly touch?

How, in 2013, you walked
through my city at night
like I walk here now
You, who came from the land far away
You didn’t know me yet
I was still a girl in your dreams

But if I could time travel
I would already meet you then
I would just take your hand,
walk by your side
look into your eyes
and you would know that
it’s me

©RoseGirl2019

Stepping Out Of The Waters

I stand on the waterside
and watch emotions flow
Turmoil moves by
There is so much going on
And yet there is stillness

My feet try to balance
on dry land
Now I have stepped
out of the waters
I’m an outsider

I do not belong to the waters
Nor do I belong to the land
But I belong to your heart
Where I’m always an insider

©RoseGirl2019

Don’t Dim Your Light

Like a firefly in the night
A glow in the dark
Her heart shines brightly
Fueled by love

Like a songbird in the sky
A beautiful nightingale
His heart sounds purely
Fueled by love

And then there are others
that have expectations,
Fear, doubt, guilt, shame
and the desire to please
put self-created limitations

But firefly and songbird,
continue to shine and sing
Your flame fueled by love
Let it shine even brighter
And don’t let others
not even yourself dim it

©RoseGirl2019

Naked Truth

Take me in your arms
And kiss me
with your skin to mine
I want to feel you,
taste you, smell you
In soul, heart and body

Unadorned
In all that you are
Even in your scars
I see your beauty

Embark on me
And fill me
with your naked truth
I want to feel you,
feel myself
In all our fullness

©RoseGirl2019

Come Seek Me

Please come seek me in my poem
In the open space between my words
Where love is breathed in each syllable
Where the unspoken says it all
Where truth is unpronounced
In the silence between two sentences
In the depths under the letters
In the meaning behind the metaphors
I wait for you to be found

©RoseGirl2019

Two Kids

We’ll just let our hearts play together
like two kids in the open fields
We leave our minds out
All the blah, blah, blah
All our drama, stories
self-created barriers,
false structures and the karma
They can only watch from afar
How our hearts find each other
and effortlessly know what to do

©RoseGirl2019

The Art Of Being Patient

I’ve never met anyone
more impatient
than my grandmother

She couldn’t even wait
for red traffic light
She then told the driver next to her
not to stop but to just drive on,
she would pay the fine

If the clock ticked too slowly,
she adjusted the time

I inherited her impatience
As I’ve never been good at waiting
I always raced at full speed
towards my dreams

But you, my love, taught me
the art of being patient
To wait for you
Moment by moment
Breath by breath

And now I am almost
as patient as a saint
For if it would be necessary
I would wait for you
a thousand lifetimes

(Although sometimes,
just like my grandmother,
I would rather adjust the clock
and jump some timelines)

©RoseGirl2019

In Your Music

Before I go to sleep I listen to your voice
that is like a sweet goodnight kiss,
a pillow to rest my head on,
a blanket to cover myself with,
a bandage around my wounded heart

And in tune with you
I am wrapped up like a burrito,
cocooned like a caterpillar
in the soothing sound
of your music

©RoseGirl2019

Underwater

And I roar underwater,
scream in air bubbles,
shout in slow-motion,
cry a sea of tears

Heaven is a blurred image
above me
And the ocean around
is wide and deep

Please help me find
the sunken city of Atlantis
and let us raise
out of the waters
paradise anew

©RoseGirl2019

Dead & Reborn

And the man on stage winds up
the gramophone
That starts to play an old,
melancholic song
As a sad widower he dances along
in his black costume
For he thinks his beloved is gone

And under the spotlights
his face is as pale as death
His mind seems pained
His makeup fades
The gramophone stops to play
He still tries to hold on
But then he falls
down to the ground
His personage dies

And he takes off his mask,
his old self
Washes his face
Put off his costume
Looks around in wonder
As all the colours
somehow look more true
And then his beloved
steps onto the stage
to take his hand to dance

©RoseGirl2019

Comfort

With the arms of these lines I hold you
Please find comfort in their
rhythmic heartbeat
Put your head against my chest
Lean on my words
Curl up to my heart

It’s okay
to let your tears out,
to shiver from fear
’cause I’ve got you
Even if you’d fall
You would only fall
deeper in my arms
deeper in the warmth
of my poetry

©RoseGirl2019

Phantom Pain

And while I lie in my bed
and I stare in the dark
I try to find you everywhere

I search in memories,
in my heartbreak
I even feel with my hand
next to me in the bed

My body aches
as I suffer from phantom pain
I’ve been amputated
of my other half
Part of my soul
that has been cut off
And I just want it
to be whole again

©RoseGirl2019

Magnets

You are the south pole
and you seek the north
I am the north pole
and seek the south
This longing between us
is as a strong
magnetic field
Halfway between
south and north
we will meet
The ‘I miss you’
is nothing but
the attraction
to be pulled back home
As the nature of magnets
is to click to each other

©RoseGirl2019

Sleeping Beauty

She lies on the couch
The morning sun shines upon
her face and heart
Illuminates the wretched shadows
Dust dances in the light around her

And she closes her eyes to thoughts
And hopes to fall into enchanted sleep
Only to wake up by a gentle kiss
of her long expected prince
That will break the magic placed upon her
Or is it that then the magic truly will begin?

©RoseGirl2019

Shh…

Shh…
Quiet down
Do not think
Just feel
The love for him
His love for you
in your heart

Shh…
Silence your thoughts
Silence the words
Only let your heart speak
and listen

Shh…
All is well
Just feel….
…. in your heart

Shh…

…..

©RoseGirl2019

Seeing Beyond

There are two worlds
There is the world of gravity
Of me here and you there
A world of a big ocean between us
Of missing you like hell
A world of time and space
Of illusion
Of life and death
A world of touch and shape

And there is the world
in which you are always with me
as I am with you
Of never being apart
A world of energy
Of you and me as one
With the force of love
that bonds us
A world of deeper truth
Beyond time, eternal
And more real than real

©RoseGirl2019

Fighting Gravity

So much weight that pulls me down
Sadness in the form of rocks
fall from my eyes
Even the prayers I send into the heavens
come crashing down to earth

And I try to fight the gravity
Untie myself
To go up high into the clouds
with you
Wind, come to catch me
My love, I will pick you up
We will fly
with the wings of these words

©RoseGirl2019

How Beautiful

How beautiful it is
Even now tears
run down my cheeks
And I miss you more
than I could say,
to have such a love

Each teardrop,
the depth of the pain
Only illustrate
the greatness of this love
That is greater than anything
even greater than sadness
and thus is able
to offer solace
to its own tears

©RoseGirl2019

If You Can’t Say It, Just Sing It

I dreamed I had lost my voice
I could not express myself
by words
Sounds were imprisoned in my throat
And I wonder, is this how you feel
Helpless and unable
to say what you want to say
To free the unspoken truth
from your heart

If it is too difficult to speak
Just try to sing it and dance it
As melodies are easier
than monotone words
And they will bring
movement to your heart

©RoseGirl2019

Deconstruct To Reconstruct

And all the false structures crumble down
As the winds of change come in
They blow away everything
what isn’t true
The old belief systems,
fake securities,
relationships that are based
on falsehood
And in the chaos of deconstruction
the foundation of love
is the only thing left standing
On which we can reconstruct
our new free world

©RoseGirl2019

On The Sidelines

And from the sidelines she watches
the theatre being played
There is always this question
Should she go on stage
And speak her truth
while she stands under spotlights
People who cannot hear her
But only hear their own projections
The risk of judgements
as sharp arrows thrown at her

Often she does
And often she stays on the sidelines
With her pen and paper to write
She doesn’t conform
She has always been a loner
together with him
She watches the theatre
For they both know
Their love is the only thing that is real

©RoseGirl2019

On A Chessboard

And on a chessboard
the pawns, the rooks,
the knights and the bishops
All have been swept away
And now there is only
the king and the queen,
You and me
And we make the board
our ballroom
Outside the boxes
of black and white
We dance our own moves

©RoseGirl2019