I’ve never met anyone
more impatient
than my grandmother

She couldn’t even wait
for red traffic light
She then told the driver next to her
not to stop but to just drive on,
she would pay the fine

If the clock ticked too slowly,
she adjusted the time

I inherited her impatience
As I’ve never been good at waiting
I always raced at full speed
towards my dreams

But you, my love, taught me
the art of being patient
To wait for you
Moment by moment
Breath by breath

And now I am almost
as patient as a saint
For if it would be necessary
I would wait for you
a thousand lifetimes

(Although sometimes,
just like my grandmother,
I would rather adjust the clock
and jump some timelines)

©RoseGirl2019

Before I go to sleep I listen to your voice
that is like a sweet goodnight kiss,
a pillow to rest my head on,
a blanket to cover myself with,
a bandage around my wounded heart

And in tune with you
I am wrapped up like a burrito,
cocooned like a caterpillar
in the soothing sound
of your music

©RoseGirl2019

And the man on stage winds up
the gramophone
That starts to play an old,
melancholic song
As a sad widower he dances along
in his black costume
For he thinks his beloved is gone

And under the spotlights
his face is as pale as death
His mind seems pained
His makeup fades
The gramophone stops to play
He still tries to hold on
But then he falls
down to the ground
His personage dies

And he takes off his mask,
his old self
Washes his face
Put off his costume
Looks around in wonder
As all the colours
somehow look more true
And then his beloved
steps onto the stage
to take his hand to dance

©RoseGirl2019

With the arms of these lines I hold you
Please find comfort in their
rhythmic heartbeat
Put your head against my chest
Lean on my words
Curl up to my heart

It’s okay
to let your tears out,
to shiver from fear
’cause I’ve got you
Even if you’d fall
You would only fall
deeper in my arms
deeper in the warmth
of my poetry

©RoseGirl2019

Each poem is a love letter
I put down on the ground
I pave the road for you
Through marshlands,
wild rivers and dark woods
Each poem a stepping stone
A connecting dot on the map
As I write my man home

©RoseGirl2019

You are the south pole
and you seek the north
I am the north pole
and seek the south
This longing between us
is as a strong
magnetic field
Halfway between
south and north
we will meet
The ‘I miss you’
is nothing but
the attraction
to be pulled back home
As the nature of magnets
is to click to each other

©RoseGirl2019

As long as I write I breathe
Even if the air is thick
The pain solid,
My heart heavy,
My thoughts too loud,
You, my muse, breathe
the inspiration into me
And my poetry is the breath out

©RoseGirl2019

She lies on the couch
The morning sun shines upon
her face and heart
Illuminates the wretched shadows
Dust dances in the light around her

And she closes her eyes to thoughts
And hopes to fall into enchanted sleep
Only to wake up by a gentle kiss
of her long expected prince
That will break the magic placed upon her
Or is it that then the magic truly will begin?

©RoseGirl2019

Shh…
Quiet down
Do not think
Just feel
The love for him
His love for you
in your heart

Shh…
Silence your thoughts
Silence the words
Only let your heart speak
and listen

Shh…
All is well
Just feel….
…. in your heart

Shh…

…..

©RoseGirl2019

There are two worlds
There is the world of gravity
Of me here and you there
A world of a big ocean between us
Of missing you like hell
A world of time and space
Of illusion
Of life and death
A world of touch and shape

And there is the world
in which you are always with me
as I am with you
Of never being apart
A world of energy
Of you and me as one
With the force of love
that bonds us
A world of deeper truth
Beyond time, eternal
And more real than real

©RoseGirl2019

It’s dark and
you are in the middle of the sea
Keep swimming, my love
My words are the floating lights
around you
That write you to my shore

©RoseGirl2019

I dreamed I had lost my voice
I could not express myself
by words
Sounds were imprisoned in my throat
And I wonder, is this how you feel
Helpless and unable
to say what you want to say
To free the unspoken truth
from your heart

If it is too difficult to speak
Just try to sing it and dance it
As melodies are easier
than monotone words
And they will bring
movement to your heart

©RoseGirl2019

And all the false structures crumble down
As the winds of change come in
They blow away everything
what isn’t true
The old belief systems,
fake securities,
relationships that are based
on falsehood
And in the chaos of deconstruction
the foundation of love
is the only thing left standing
On which we can reconstruct
our new free world

©RoseGirl2019

And from the sidelines she watches
the theatre being played
There is always this question
Should she go on stage
And speak her truth
while she stands under spotlights
People who cannot hear her
But only hear their own projections
The risk of judgements
as sharp arrows thrown at her

Often she does
And often she stays on the sidelines
With her pen and paper to write
She doesn’t conform
She has always been a loner
together with him
She watches the theatre
For they both know
Their love is the only thing that is real

©RoseGirl2019

And on a chessboard
the pawns, the rooks,
the knights and the bishops
All have been swept away
And now there is only
the king and the queen,
You and me
And we make the board
our ballroom
Outside the boxes
of black and white
We dance our own moves

©RoseGirl2019

You pressed yourself in
Right into my heart
Where you made
your everlasting imprint
And now, like an inner tattoo,
I carry you always within

©RoseGirl2019

If obstacles arise as mountains,
Let us be like two rivers
We just flow around it,
we adapt and change,
allow the sun to shine in our waters
Our streams find each other
and merge fluidly
into one big sea
of love

©RoseGirl2019

All those noises and rumours I hear
Distracting flickers I see
It’s getting easier to leave,
to let go and move
forward on my path
My eyes focused at my dreams
My feet and hands
aren’t tied any longer
I am free to dance
My voice is free to speak
The only thing that matters
is to be faithful and devoted
to my heart,
loyal to the Crown of our love

©RoseGirl2019

When two stars collide,
they merge into a new,
more massive star

Our hearts once
only collided
to get rid of
old material
and to merge
into new, greater love

©RoseGirl2019

If the rose wouldn’t have hope
and the knowing
that the sun would return
when he sets at night,
then she would wither
in darkness
even before her beloved
could rise

©RoseGirl2019

Some memories are happy beacons
that light up when you look back
at the timeline you have walked
Where other memories are sharp pins
along the road that mark painful spots

Two years ago a story
has been played out
in a small Dutch town called Warmond
A lot can be said about it,
And different versions of the story
have been told

She takes the book of love
of her and her beloved,
tears out the old stories
And writes it anew
The story of Warmond
to find its beauty in its deeper truth….

The evening had been confusing
An undertow of strong emotions
had been exchanged between us
That didn’t match
with what we said on the surface
The tides pulled us back
from each other
I was in a sea of fear
And tried to swim back to your shore
Until the waves were too high and too strong
And I let myself float away

We said goodbye
I took my coat and left
I drove away in my car
Until my heart started
to scream at me
As it wanted to free itself
from behind its self-built walls
and wanted to tell you
its deeper truth

I turned my car
Ebb turned into flow
The waves that before
had pulled me away
Now pushed me back
to you

I was afraid I was too late
And you had already left
So I jumped from my car
and ran towards the venue
At that moment you came out
The waters of my heart
broke through the dam
I told you ‘I love you’

You took me in your arms
Your waters broke through
From your heart, from your eyes
We both cried, we smiled
You told me you love me too
We kissed, we touched
Our arms bridged the distance
And turned cold into warmth
in Warmond

I took you with me in my car
We drove under the moon and stars
The world could drown
But from that night on
We had our own ship
and no tide, no wave
could ever separate us

©RoseGirl2019

And I keep our sacred space clean
and don’t let anything other than
the two of us come in
I close the curtains
I light up the candles
And dress up for you
A fresh rose in my hair

I’ll see you here
in our sacred space
in which we meet
in visions and in dreams
We only need to go
through the portal of
the connection
between our hearts
To have our own reality

©RoseGirl2019

My love for you keeps growing
Out of new buds it keeps blossoming
It let me stand strong
and rooted like a tree
Its branches reach higher
Its crown colours greener
Even the rain that fell down
only watered its growth

©RoseGirl2019

The sun shines through the window
And the birds in the garden sing of Spring
My hands around a cup of coffee
My heart around you
A steaming heat of love burns deep within
And sets the wireless line
that connects the two of us
on fire
Love travels faster
than the speed of light

©RoseGirl2019

You’re like the most beautiful painting
that I keep looking at
The pure river of your heart
that flows through a breathtaking landscape

I look from different angles,
see so much perspective
and keep discovering new things
I see the whole as well as every detail
All the bright shining colours
Even the shadows complement

In the world’s museum you are treasured
Your beauty for everyone to see
Though only my eyes recognize
the true depths

©RoseGirl2019

We will just keep it simple
Without any decoration
No rhyme, no scheme
No introduction or blah blah
We can even undress
ourselves from words
And only let our hearts make
the poetry

©RoseGirl2019

I went through hell to recognize heaven
The deep dark taught me compassion
In the night sky I found the stars
In the ugly I found the beauty
Through fears and shadows I found love
I fell through ego to find truth
In the moon I found the sun
I dived in me to find you

©RoseGirl2019