Who Is There

Who is there
when there’s no one there no more
when the music has been turned off,
the dance stopped
when the day has sunk away
and the night envelopes me
when I’m alone with my thoughts,
alone with headaches
who is there
who is always
and everywhere
where love is

It’s you


That Star

When the night consists of pain
migraines that cut like knives
in the head
and make it hard to breathe
as the whole body contracts
Alone on a violent sea
The shore of the morning
yet far away
then you’re that star in the firmament
that my heart stays focused on


Snow In April

When it snows and storms
in April
and I battle with the wind
battle with myself
and I cannot even get words out
will you hold me tightly
as I cry and scream my pain
in hurricanes and waterfalls
and will you remind me
with your strong arms,
your soft voice
of the inevitability of Spring


Eyes Closed

If I just keep my eyes closed,
I won’t see the raindrops
that slide down the window
through which I look
at the world,
I won’t see all the colours
that are missing,
the yawning gaps
between words

But if I just keep
my eyes closed
I see you



In the silent cold winter night
pain thunders in the head
and wakes up too many thoughts
The body lies still
and the heart sings a soft lullaby
that all is safe and well
that there is love, there is us
to put pain and thoughts to sleep



Nightmares come at night
like hyenas from all corners
to catch their prey
and bring the ghosts of the past
back to life
even when I open my eyes
I can still see them
And while I listen to a freezing cold
snow storm that rages
around the house
I crawl deep under the covers,
under the warmth of our love
to find back my dreams of the future



Hurt can be like a hurricane
blind rage that tears
everything down
my heart, my words helpless
in a thousand pieces
all around me
but when I look at them
one by one
I still read their love poem
for you


A Hand

And as she lies
on her bed
enduring aches,
straight through
the thunder
she hears his
soft call,
his hopeful song
and then
with tender touch
their love puts a hand
on her forehead
and heart
to soothe her
till the storm passes



When the darkness outside
is suffocating
and I don’t even know
if the wetness I sense
on my cheeks is
my tears or
it is the rain
and I seek a light
on the near horizon
but all I see are stars
light years away
their light in fact,
long gone
Then I feel you,
feel our hearts connect
and light up
and then
I can
breathe again